My Xiao Xin

god....been sick.....i guess have been working too hard without resting enuff.....well..finally today off...can rest

and..i dreamt of my xiao xin yesterday!!!hee...really brightens up my day when i dream of him lo....hee....welll.....we were holding hands in e dream...and he's so shy....haha....well...same in reality..well...does the dream means something ? hee...

CyCliNg UndER the MooNLighT

i really enjoy myself man.....i cycled around my neighbourhood since 1am yesterday....on the main roads somemore...so "shuang"!!! the wind was cool.....shiok.....really shiok!!!!

and then i got a ride from two guys to...wow...really fun....one of them was cycling and i stand on the bicycle....it was fun..the wind against my face....shiok!!!but...he ah....only manage to bring me to a distant only...hey boy!!!!if ya reading...go train k? then "zai wo" more...... :)

and then another guy also "zai wo"...hee..i sat in front....wah....din expect him to able to cycle with me on the bicyle lo....i so heavy...but he really manage....and somemore..he cycled with me on the bicycle to a few blocks away jus tto get my sis supper....haha...he has trained enough..haha.....

i really enjoyed myself...haha...thanks boys...training you to "zai" your gf in future :P

ExerCisinG

hmm...i went swimming yesterday!!!gosh...fun...actually i dunno how to swim..i can swim a certain distance..but i dunno how to catch breathe.. :( so always stop when i dun have air already..haha...dumb right?

then my friend try to taught me breaststroke style of swimming...and i realise..i really slow..and my brain cannot coordinate..haha..once i know how i shld move my legs..i can't move my hands...slow slow slow....well...i guess i better brush up my freestyle and try to learn breaststroke...
i wanna jiayou..cuz i wanna be fit..hee...swimming can reduce fats plus save money too...healthy lifestyle...why not?

haha..but after yesterday swim, me and my close friend went to eat..after drinking..bought e33 for each of us..and i just drank the whole thing within 10mins...and right...i felt dizzy...and almost fainted....god...what am i trying to do?

Pursue What YouR HeaRt DesiRes ~~~

after exams..lazing at home always lead me to think of alot of unnecessary things..in fact..yes i been thinking of you again..xin...

oh well...was talking to a friend of min abt the things i been thru few months back...the most depressing period due to my mistake in life..well..was in tears man...and he tell me that .. it was a big mistake indeed and no point regretting..just let nature takes its course...and he told me to tell that to myself" things are going to turn out fine"..if i always remind myself that, things would really turn out fine...would it ?

well...pursue what your heart desires...i guess, many people do that ? just follow what their heart wanna do..however, pple do rem....sometimes pursuing what ur heart desires may be wrong..however, always think abt consequences...

and today, been listening to a song very related to this "pursue what your heart desires"....
this song is nice, guys go check this out " "listen to your heart " by Roxette.. nice song

been listening to alot of old old but sentimental music..i wonder why...and recently, i met up a friend of mine...haha..just realise he like this kind of music too..cuz his ringing tone is same as mine..."right here waiting for you"..another popular sentimental song which i guess everyone knows...

White Blazer!!!

pple....white blazers are really hard to get....i have been walking here and there looking for a white blazer for myself...perhaps, i am just too fat...can't get the right size too..hee

why white? cuz i look good in white..haha...i mean though white make one looks bigger, my skintone is suitable for white..thats why i have been looking high and low for a white blazer that suits me...singapore really kinda hard to find white..or maybe white is not a popular colour cuz it gets dirty easily..however, i still insists white unless i can find a nice black one..

finally..i bought already..hee...pple..i am gonna wear tml..so maybe u will know whether white suits me anot...haha...definitely i am sure..but white doesn't gurantee i wil ldo well for DPP..haha

good luck to me... :)

FriendS?!?

hmm...i have lost a friend...kinda sad...i met him with one bunch group of people..however, he dun even wanna talk to me much...haiz~~he use to be closest friend..we used to talk everything under the sun..really...we could talk for hours and days..i knew him through my friend..we were so close until we wanted to be "godbrother and god sister"..yes..we were..yes...were..no more are...there wasn't chemistry between us at all, we were just plainly good friends..well, i still rem when he was about to get enlisted in army, he gave me a call and said, anything can call him, cuz he would be worried about me cuz i can't take care of myself..i was really touch then..we were both attached then, and i was grateful for having such a close friend who would be there for me when i needed him. all my boyfriends knew about his presence, i would let them know about him cuz i dun wanna him to cause any misunderstandings and his presence won't pose danger to me and my boyfriends..

however, i dunno when it started, but we were no longer close. yes..everyone gets busier..however, we became strangers becuz of his girlfriend. i dunno what went wrong, but i know his gf really dislike me, well, i dun like her either. i have know him for years, if there was something between us, it would have happen long ago..goodness...yet, she always find the most stupid reasons to quarrel with him and behaving in the most unreasonable way. i can't stand her..seriously, i cant tolerate this kind of behaviour. i mean i wouldn't like the idea of my own bf having a very close gal friend as well, but if my bf really explains the relationship clearly and if i trusted my bf, why not? an occasional drink together or a chat won't kill...and if my bf really clean over the friendship, i dun mind to even be close friends with her. but i guess..saying is easy..maybe if one day, my bf really have such a close gal friend, i wonder how i behave..but i hope in a reasonable way...

well...anway, when i saw him i realised i can't talk to him anymore..our friendship is gone...well...i just felt sad cuz i lost a friend..and disappointed...well, nvm...just wish him all the best then.. for me...i dunno if i have any friends who would stand by me, however, i know, whenever if my dear friends who needs me to be around, if i can, i would be there ..cuz i know...a listening ear always helps...

treasure your relationship with your bf or gf...however, dun neglect friends too...friendship is dear too... hee...

MaRriaGe

i went to my pal's ROM yesterday...he's getting married....haa...goodness...i guess i am going to get more in future? many friends are now at the age who are planning to get married..when will it be mine ? haha...well...i use to wish to get married at a young age cuz i wanted to settle down...but however...now...nah...i won't want to get married...partially no one wants me.. :P

just kidding...i dunno if there is anyone who want me...but marriage is something serious cuz ya going to face the person for at least half your lifetime..in times of happiness, sadness and everything, you gotta stand by your future husband or wife..

however, marriage now is taken quite lightly...the number of divorces are increasing..hmm...well..it may be a good sign though..cuz the moment you dun feel happy, you dun have to suffer, just divorce..however, traditionally, you have broken the promise you make on the day of ROM..you have taken the initiative to go for solemnization (correct spelling?!?), but u did not abide by it..kinda sad....

however..there are still happiness la...there are still many good marriages around..my parents' is one of them.. hee...i am already 23 this year..they have got married for almost 25 years...well...definitely, there will be disputes, but it will be solved..and still happily marriage..this shld be the way isn't it ?

Good luck to all those in love...those preparing to get married...think twice and be serious over your decision..marriage is not for show or play...jiayou!!!

Essence of Life

hello pple....what's the thing u wanna achieve in life?
career? money? marriage?happiness?
what's the correct focus? hmm....anione can give me an answer?

i believe in destiny..i am a person who believes in fate too...and i trust my instincts. ..i trust my basic instincts..do not doubt my sixth sense, it's in me...haha...but perhaps..at times..i believe in myself too much that my instincts usually land me in trouble..but...i still believe...cuz utlimately..i am the person making decisions and learning the essence of life..i always believe in one being responsible for one's acts...in the past and now...i still believe in this..cuz..whatever you do..bear the consequences...pple around you can only provide you w advice, some bad suggestions, however, untlimately...it is YOU, YOURSELF..responsible for your own acts..

friends...i did a serious big mistake in may...i guess only my closest friends know what it is all about...pple...until just a few weeks ago, i have learn to accept the fact..seriously..the mistake has made me make more mistakes after that, however, i have learnt it well liao..i have been strong...i have tried...really...i won't be defeated...i will be sad..but i will pick up myself when it is time..
distinguishing between like and love for someone...have taught me a serious lesson...though in a hard way, but trust me, i learnt it well..life may not be simple for me, but i will spent it well..whether it will be sad,happy, miserable or exciting, i shall spend time fruitfully...thats life..

the essence of life...to know one's direction clearly..spending time the way you wanna spend...doing the things the way you wanted to and do not regret..look back into the past..but prepare for the future...

i do sound pretty serious today...i do not know why...but kinda sad now...would anyone know what have i been thinking....would anyone understand me..and would anyone be there for me when i really need someone...would there be anyone....

ShoPpinG Queen!!!

hello!!!it's me again..hmm..quite addicted to blog now...very hardworking..almost everyday will update my blog..can tell right? well..dunno how long will my passion for the blong would lasts..hee :P

i have a very long day today...was at the agency today..it's time to look for jobs..wel..almost every single agency just asks ask to email them my cv..hmm..damn it...lazy la...very nua...haha..well, soon la..will do a cv soon..if i ever get the chance to use the pc for very long..that pig keep using the pc...well..it has been a month.i haven talk to her..well, she neva apologise so wh yshld i bother..right? ...oh yes..met a bitch at one of the agency today..so bitchy lo..critise my cv also..damn her..well, probably she has seen too much of grads like me...very sian in entertaining me..hee...got 35 agencies at international plaza lo!!35!!but we only conquered think 10cuz alot of them got mamasan down there "qiao" leg only..haha..

After the long search for jobs, me and moi friend went to trim eyebrow..damn it..think that person trim until her hands shake..she cause one gap between my eyebrow..argh...look so ugly..:( but i neva thnk too much also...went eating kenny roger..one of my favourite..then went shopping cuz my friend wanna attend a wedding..so she had to find clothes...and we went walk....haha...and iu enjoy picking clothes for people, cuz i like to see dif pple w diff figures trying out diff clothes..and i have confidence in my taste. :) well, cuz i have not much $$ to buy but i am happy to see my friends buy clothes that suit them. and i really like the blue top that i picked for my friend..well, i neva try but she looks good in it :) i think she will get alot of attention that day..the colours are getting alot of attention in a very femine way..and she's tall too..show of her main assets..but she dun like wearing skirt..but girl, if ya reading...pls..she look great in it..i dun lie..u shld know my frank comments..hee...

so after the shopping, i realise, i have the natural thing in me that can visualise tastes on pple..well, i din pursue my interests..3 years ago..well...nvm...gonna save up,,,trying hard..then i shall start my fashion shop...i love fashion..though for myself, i dun really look presentable..haha...i guess gotta improve on myself first..hee...

god..it's a long blog..hope no one fell asleep...hee...bye..gotta go work...hope my eyes dun look puffy...cried myself to sleep..hee...but i am ok again...bye~~~

Quit Smoking & Drinking?!?

hmmm....exams are over..time to do some reflection..hmm...went to school and attended a briefing on interview..my interview is next friday, so still a long way to go..but kinda scary from the way that "santa" says..haha..i call him "santa" cuz he reminds me of santa..hee..aniwae, christmas is coming..:P
in school, i just told my friends that i gotta quit smoking and drinking cuz they will affect my health..and they do not solve problems..right pple? hmm..however..when i was having dinner, a friend of mine asks me to accompany her go drinking..oh boy..so i went...she was moody..i was neither in a good mood..so i started drinking and smoking..talking about quiting....hmm..when would i quit..haha..soon la...i can't afford to smoke or drink also...haha..well, pple,..i am a non smoker and drinker in the past..but..really they do take my mind off certain things..so ok right? but i won't become an addict...hee..cuz i haven bought my first packet of cigges...hee...

gotta go liao...gonna look for job liao...and...today was a disappointment..cuz my careers that work got a pass only..goodness...i dunno what i did also...haha..bye everyone~~~

Years in SIM

First yr of SIM, entering SIM was a new place..new friends new environment..everything was new..i came..excited..after a sad relationship, i came into SIM..made friends..started a very fast relationship..and ended pretty fast too...hmm...how do i feel about it now..well...one word..fast..feelings?over..well, it was part of my memories of SIM. it happened first year..the first half of my first year.oh ya..i found a friend...Min..she will be foreva the most trusting friend i know in SIM..i missed the times we gossip around, bitching around and the times you were there for me..i really appreciated..thanks..hereby, i wish you all the best in whatever you do..Pple, she's really a very nice gal...never regretted knowing..who's she? it is for you guys to find out...haha...

hmm...it was also the second half of my first year that i know my third boyfriend...til now..he's still the one i really love...til now....why til now..cuz i can't gurantee who i love in the future..everyone also the same..but i am glad i am clear about my feelings now..hee :) ... Thanks...he has taught me alot of things in life... without him, my life in SIM would be rather boring... well, thanks to him also, i had a dramatic relationship....

My 2nd year in SIM...hmm...nothing special...unless y9ou guys see taking ur specialisation as special? haha...i chose mine...and enjoyed mine..did u guys?...this yr..did alot of projects..amd quarrel pretty much becuz of this..but i guess..projects can really tell you what kinda people you are dealing with...pple are always so complicated...and fake at times...i came to be aware of this during this yr...yes..so it was a fruitful year also ? hee...

Lastly...final year...hmm....it started off not nicely....well....becuz of my ups and downs in relationship..thats why...but no problem...i am ok now....and third yr...well..the most memorable thing is the melbourne trip...the chance for me to go mebourne with pple in SIM...it was fruitful...but i din go anywhere other than mebourne...kinda sad? well...bo bian...no one likes me..nobody wanna go sydney with me...haha...anway, i am back in singapore...thanks to "fen" and "ni"...it was enjoyable shopping and exploring the small mebourne city...i miss melbourne...the weather....the people... :) oh well...no worries...my mates....plus ren ge and chong ge, we gonna go together next dec..rem the deal..and rem me!!!haha..well...planning is easy....but implementing is hard...thats what Sherman said...haha...

hmm...time just passes like that...i will definitely keep thinking of life in SIM..i have got to know friends...some are simply very nice...thanks for been there for me when i needed you.....some...whom i seldom meet...some whom i seldom talk face to face..but greatly, many who gave me encouragement on msn...i hope you know who you are....xie xie ....

pple...i am kinda sad today....started missing you guys already...hee...my seniors..my juniors...everyone....pple i love, pple i like, pple i dislike plus pple i "bio"..i am gonna miss all of you..... hereby, i wish everyone...all the best...everyone...

to be simple is blessings...happiness is desirable...memories are sweet...grudges are not meant to be remembered..

ExaMs Over...Whats NexT?

hurray!!!exaMs over...however it was a disappointing paper, cuz the format was totally different from the past exams...well..just wished all the best...so many people were complaining over it..oh well...just hope that everyone passes... :)

hmm..last day of exams...kinda sad...school's ending..gotta miss school...three years...short...nah....pretty long..went thru a couple of ups and dwons...made friends made enemies..all kinds..studied..played..worked...well, i had went thru all sorts...exams..studies...skipping lectures...assignments...gonna miss them...i guess more or less is the time spent with friends that i missed the most..frankly speaking..i made real lot of friends, i know really quite alot..some friends..some hidden foes..some known foes..well, thanks to all of you, you have been part of my life..

ExAms~~

hmm....this morning got a very important appointment...hee...welll...early morning....already very happy...haha..well...at least this appointment has started my day well...after the appointment, i had lunch with my "godpa" and ""godma"....hmm..they really dote on me..perhaps it's because of the relationship i have with their son..haha :P

then my "godpa" drove me to Suntec city...i have exam this wed..but since i outside..might as well go walk around...so my "godpa" dropped me at suntec, and before i alighted, he gave me money for shopping...though it is not a very big amount, i am very touched....his action made me paiseh also...but lucky, me and his son got along quite well....a relationship? u pple must be wandering...well....well.....i dunno..everything is up to the future....i can't do anything.. hee :P
well...i want a cinderella ending...rem? hee

god....this wed exam....and my last exam was last thurs..til now...i haven fnish...maybe relaxing too much....oh well...gonna start now....slept straight after i got home today..and headache..slept too much..haha...b4 exams have ended, i have plans over how to spend my time fruitfully...gonna learn pilate, swimming and go gym....haha...gonna keep fit and keep slim... :P anione wanna join me ?

oh yes...people, i love the song "the one you love" by GLenn Frey..i have been listening to it for a couple of times..this is an old song..but i like the music esp the saxaphone...hee...sentimental mah....well, i am no romantic person..but i am sentimental :)

have to stop liao....gotta work hard on my government and business...hee...good luck everyone...
Miss you Xiao Xin~~~ Do you miss me ley ? :P