突然好想你
#最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自已屬於我自已
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己
*突然好想你 你會在哪裡
過的快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛
我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麽你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下 最痛的紀念品
我們 那麽甜 那麽美 那麽相信那麽瘋 那麽熱烈的曾經為何我們 還是要奔曏各自的幸福和遺憾中老去
REPEAT *
#最怕此生 已經決心自己過沒有你
卻又突然 聽到你的 消息
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been packing my stuffs.. found a couple of things which made me thought of alot of things again!
cards, letters, diaries .. i shld have threw everything.. but ... i put them in a plastic bag, seconds after .. i put it back in my drawer... they are of some values.. grew up with me and gave me memories... regardless good or bad... i still keep!
anyway...suddenly rem the days when i am always on the phone with my XiaoGe ... haa.... even a small message could get me so excited then... well... saw alot silly things that i did for him and remembering little things including the dates i know him, met him etc.... that's puppy love? i guess... silly ... but just so funny ... still... glad that we are still friends!
then saw alot of cards, letters from ex-lovers and all... realise that i am really not a good gf after all... seems to bring them so much pain and horror, stress and all.... am i that bad? and seems that they have difficulty communicating to me including their feelings and thoughts.. or is it just a way from men to make women feel guilty after breakups? well... alittle of both ya?
the forever thing, the promise thing...do they ever rem ? and now the look of it make me sort of disgusted ... but why does it appear so sweet in the beginning..not a bit of doubts that time... that is call blinded by love... haa!
it pains me .. especially when i am running through the last serious letter from XiaoXin... i suddenly feel so small and the cause of everything and his plight today... i am that bad? and really such a horrible gF? i seriously think so ... no tears though... but... the hurts there...
well... 突然好想你... yes ... 突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛...我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影...
.... 變成兩部悲傷的電影
Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
it's Mayday AGAIN
I bought Mayday’s latest album. I went to queue for the exchange of the concert ticket as well. I was never so enthusiastic when I was 18 or 19. doing such thing is like during teens, am I too old for it ? nevertheless, mayday’s not to be missed. Especially ashin… I think I am getting too infatuated with him. A replacement for not falling in love with anyone? I dun know. But I really admire his talents, he write and make songs … of course he sings … and he always give me a feeling of humbleness. I do not know him in person, but I wish…
Mayday’s first ever outdoor concert on the 4th Jan 2009 was a big success. As usual, they brought everyone to jump and sing with them. Music blasting loudly, everyone was feeling super high including myself! And I cried. I cannot explained … their music just moved me … into little tears… many would have said that I have gone mad … but I am not … well… I am just not myself when I know I love him… haa! Furthermore, with looks and brains … double combo …
Yesterday they had another event again. I am disappointed … becuz of the renovations at home, I couldn’t make it to see them. Wee went and shook their hands, so close! I am really sad … just hope I will see them again. Of course … Ashin …
Counting Down of 2008 and moving to 2009!!
Countdown
I think this is the 1st time I ever really went to a countdown session with my friends. First, I do not really like crowds cuz they make me giddy… lol …. But chilling at a friend’s pub for new year’s eve is not a bad idea. So angel and her gang plus sec* gang met at the pub together. I guess I am a lousy coordinator… cuz I couldn’t make angel stayed throughout the whole countdown and these 2 groups did not really communicate at all. I am disappointed with this situation. It is supposed to be a happy event to look forward to 2009, but I guess some were bored … well… never again … I will never try to organize a friends knowing session again … tough job.
One glad thing … I saw R*, very cool and shuai qi… lol … am I falling for R*? scary huh ?
2009Resolution
Achieving what I have always wanted?
Well, my resolutions every year do not differ much.
The standard wishes and wants.
But I wish to add a few more things.
Spendthrift no more. Tough one… but I need to. Seriously. So friends, dun complain me being stingy ok! LOL
Well… nevertheless, 2009 will be a good year for me, myself … my family, my friends … to everyone I love, like and hate … I bless you.
I think this is the 1st time I ever really went to a countdown session with my friends. First, I do not really like crowds cuz they make me giddy… lol …. But chilling at a friend’s pub for new year’s eve is not a bad idea. So angel and her gang plus sec* gang met at the pub together. I guess I am a lousy coordinator… cuz I couldn’t make angel stayed throughout the whole countdown and these 2 groups did not really communicate at all. I am disappointed with this situation. It is supposed to be a happy event to look forward to 2009, but I guess some were bored … well… never again … I will never try to organize a friends knowing session again … tough job.
One glad thing … I saw R*, very cool and shuai qi… lol … am I falling for R*? scary huh ?
2009Resolution
Achieving what I have always wanted?
Well, my resolutions every year do not differ much.
The standard wishes and wants.
But I wish to add a few more things.
Spendthrift no more. Tough one… but I need to. Seriously. So friends, dun complain me being stingy ok! LOL
Well… nevertheless, 2009 will be a good year for me, myself … my family, my friends … to everyone I love, like and hate … I bless you.
BBQs SESSIONS!!!
BBQ on xmas eve was a nice idea. But we were not blessed with the instincts on predicting the weather. It rained since midnight and it did not really stop even at 8pm on that day. It was a disappointment. But luckily got some smart pple already planned to bbq indoors thus they prepare the disposable bbq sets. In the dark pavilion, spotting good spots for space, fighting for lights to see, struggling with the bbq of food. It was a nice night after all. Pics turn out not so dark. Simple gift exchange and I got almond chocolate biscuits … hmm… no linkage with xmas… well… and yes … I was talking to white angel I only notice a few men in the bbq. And she ask me if I am interested with one of them … LOL … haha … I dun know wat to say lor … it’s been so long … I wonder if I will be alright to be in a relationship again ?
As I brought home a lot of unfinished food on xmas eve, my dad decide to rent chalet for the next 2 days.we toured in his car and past by east coast. And to my surprise, they have a vacant chalet for us. A no plan cue, we stayed there for 2 days and yes … I had bbq for that 2 days… and … my dad’s friend also had bbq on the following day. He invited the whole family over… they had a wide variety of food … but I cant eat … looking at bbq food … I almost vomit…
It was a eventful week … I loved every bit of it …
Remembering the Good Old Times
Uni meetup
Chocolate banana cake was the star of the night. It brought us endless laughter, dirty jokes and happy meetup. We finally get to meet again and coincidentally it was cui’s birthday as well. Had a simple dinner at the noisy Café cartel at PS, then moving to secret receipe for cake celebration. With Adr insisting, we ordered a one whole Chocolate banana cake! It’s big! And obviously, we couldn’t finish and I guess I wouldn’t dare to look at cakes for at least a week. Well, it was a simple meet up. Just hope we will be able to go for a trip together… when will it happen ….
Chocolate banana cake was the star of the night. It brought us endless laughter, dirty jokes and happy meetup. We finally get to meet again and coincidentally it was cui’s birthday as well. Had a simple dinner at the noisy Café cartel at PS, then moving to secret receipe for cake celebration. With Adr insisting, we ordered a one whole Chocolate banana cake! It’s big! And obviously, we couldn’t finish and I guess I wouldn’t dare to look at cakes for at least a week. Well, it was a simple meet up. Just hope we will be able to go for a trip together… when will it happen ….
College meetup
Initially, I planned to work on new year’s eve… then I can meet the girls after work… but I gotta have a change of plan as the company decide to shut down on that day. No one will be in office on that day … because of this arrangement, I decide to meet my jc friends. Da jie has smsed me earlier on to meet up. But my schedule in dec was simply too tight … well, luckily all girls were able to meet in the morning of 31st, last day for 2008.
Initially, I planned to work on new year’s eve… then I can meet the girls after work… but I gotta have a change of plan as the company decide to shut down on that day. No one will be in office on that day … because of this arrangement, I decide to meet my jc friends. Da jie has smsed me earlier on to meet up. But my schedule in dec was simply too tight … well, luckily all girls were able to meet in the morning of 31st, last day for 2008.
It has been so long since I wake up at 9 in order to meet my friends. Haha… well… not too bad … nice cosy breakfast catching up… and yes … 2 more of them gonna have their wedding dinners in 2009. yes … I will be invited again … I gonna cry for my pockets again! Well … but I am happy for them. Especially da jie … she has been with her “tinkle” for 12 years. Yes … 12 years … amazing long run … well… congrats and blessed ….
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