Dec - Activities Ahead~~

Loads of activities ahead… I will go for my quick make-over in few hours time. Prob will shop awhile before heading home. Tomorrow gotta be at C*’s house early morning! IT’s her big day tomorrow. It was decided rather abruptly but I guess it will end up well. Blessed you, C*! I am excited cuz I feel happy for her. In fact, I have know C* for 10 over years, have see her change till today. Everyone’s has his or her problems especially in relationship. Well, for now looking at her get married, I feel happy for her too. I shall reserve my comments about her hubby. I only him but not well enough… I just wished he would treat her nicely as can be. =)

Next Tuesday, I will be attending another wedding - Stef* wedding. My ex-colleague. White Angel will be going as well! Haha … so I have more company. And the guys are thinking of 2nd round already… haiz… I doubt I can make it sia… still got work the next day … well…just play by the ear …

Probably meeting the uni people next Monday. Haa.. missed the gathering the other time. So hope all are good.

Finally … BBQ! Yes … was thinking of bbq many times but only think no action. Lucky got white angel. Thanks to you! She keeps the planned activities going. So we will be having bbq on xmas eve. Lol … and we still got many places and things to do after… Remember ah!

And yes… I wanna get Mayday’s CD today! Wanna queue on the 28th to attend their mini concert! Yes … I need to go… my Ashin! Missed you so much!!!!! Hope I am still able to get the CD plus tix. Blessed me!

Yes… 2008 is coming to an end… seems pretty fast … 13 days … goodness …

Dec – E* birthday celebration

Celerbrated E* birthday on Friday. Rather belated… cuz all of us were busy to the core. H* was supposed to buy and plan everything. But she seems not able to make decision for everything. And it pissed both me and W* quite abit. Well .. lucky E* decided the dinner location and drinking location … otherwise we would be debating again… LOL… I usually do not like the idea of giving people’s vouchers for birthdays. Cuz I find it abit not sincere. It may seems practical. But usually you will know that your friend’s birthday is coming and would start to plan. Shouldn’t you plan the gift as well? Unless the person do not need anything or she prefers cash or voucher; otherwise I think I would only consider voucher as the last resort. Buying gifts needs time and your understanding of the receiver. And to look at the receiver’s smile after taking the gifts can really brightens you up, dun you think? Shows you that your effort pays off… well…just my piece of mind….

Anyway, we had our dinner at Sushi The at vivio followed by drinks at Boiler @ St James. The guy was hilarious. Plus Patrick. He’s rather charming. Cant resist secretly looking at him… haa… heard from H* that he’s married… well…sad… haha …And E* got her 10th guy… turn out to be not so bad guy afterall … keke…wonder who lose now… haha

Anyway was chatting with Iv* the other day over ah bengs. He knew that I sort of like ah bengs… not those triad people but look baddie yet good inside… very hard to describe … and he said … usually bengs marry early … how true? So I guess … Xin will get marry soon eh? Haa!

Dec - D & D

11th Dec was my company’s annual dinner. It’s held at Mandarin Oriental. Buffet style and no theme. I was at N*’s house and waited for her hubby. Thus we reached the hotel rather late. In fact, the dinner was a simple one and I think the main part of it was just announcing the winners to the lucky draw. But, me being photo whore… started snapping and snapping. Haha … bought this blue dress from FNT and loved the colour. And in fact, I find that it was rather eye catching when I looked at the pics. Haha … well … I looked so big lo… very giant like … haiz… well … diet is really necessary … back to my bee hoon diet everyday…

Because of my lateness, me and n* did not have the chance for participating in the draw… instead our numbers were at the last bit thus we only get vouchers. Well… better than nothing… I got myself capita and best denki voucher … hmmm… wat can I get …. And my direct boss was rather nice this time round too… he gave me his prize … haha … a sennheiser headphone set togther with his taka voucher… hoho… double wins …. Keke … went taka ytd to look for wat I want… but nothing catches my eye … thinking of buying a longchamp bag with it … just top it with additional 100+. I guess … it’s worthwhile? Or shall I use it for a burberry bag…. Hmm …

Dec – Penang trip

HeLLo…. I am back … came back last wed but too much events followed after that I did not have time to blog over it! I touched down on Wednesday, and my company’s D & D was Thursday. Friday followed the celebration of Eil*’s birthday. Saturday was to meet the girls for discussion on wedding issues, and followed by shopping for xmas gifts. Sunday is even occupied – my class…. Hoho … Super busy lor….

I have enjoyed my trip in Penang. Met up my cousins … it has been really quite awhile since I met them. All have grown up and changed. Snapped as much pics as possible as there is seldom chances to meet together. If not for N*’s wedding, I also dun know when we can get together. Food and shopping was like a “must” activity for us in Penang this time round. My siblings and I were like hungry every moment and we could eat up to 8 meals a day! No joke! Hokkien Mee, Wan Tan Mee, Char Kueh Teoy, Kopi Ice, Teh-o ice, curry rice… hoho.. my fav… oh yes .. toasted bread … But kinda disappointed because my favourite stall selling Penang Laksa moved already. I was craving for it so much and before my flight we went to the stall to check it out. But … it has moved … so much for my cravings…

I thought I can control my shopping over there … but … I failed … I went to this shop which sells korea, hong kong and Japanese clothes; spent over 1k just in that shop. Yes …. 1k … Ringgit though… but still … well, most importantly I loved them. Wee also commented this time round my clothes are like more young and presentable. I have grew out of buying just being unique which may end up ugly. Lol

More surprises this time round. Saw a few artistes from Hong Kong. 刘丹, who acts in “真情”happens to stay in the same hotel as me. Manage to pluck up my courage and took a picture with him. We also saw 官恩娜. I not too sure what show she’s in…But she’s pretty. Rather friendly too, and she even ask me to wait for her to continue taking pictures. Her hands were dirty from holding a big crab thus she asked us to wait. And she did came back for picture taking. Cool…

Also met up She*… haven see her for so long!!! Well…still the same.. but I guess she cannot come sg so soon… haiz… but oh well…was good catching up with her… hope to see her soon.
Well … that’s all for my trip … short and sweet … but this break came at the right time… I felt much better at work … I was still frustrated before the trip… Now… much better … 2009 is coming … and I wanna change to a dream job soon. That’s my main wish now I guess…

~ HaPpy Me Now ~

I realise I hardly write happy blogs. LOL

Usually updates of only my daily events, crying, etc.

But I am rather happy today, though my stomach is growling away. It's loud! I swear! Been having Bee Hoon soup everyday for a week already. I missed dry Mee poh~~ No supper, though i broke my rules on Monday. Cant resist the dry prawn mee poh at BLk 925... Ate prawn cracker at 4 ytd. Anyway, i broke my rules again, I went to buy curry puff. haa! Well, but this diet is really very "xin ku" I hope I will shed away my fats soon~~ I really wanna minimise my burging stomach. =p

Another hour, I am going to have my feast! yes... going for steamboat! Finally, the plan has been lingering me for so long and yet accomplished. yohoo!!! I meeting the White Angel and her friend for steamboat! yes!!! so excited... hehe ... food - being one of my favourite pastimes, not to eat is really indeed quite a torture to me. So I hope i will be able to shed some kilograms off soon and i can eat my favourite cakes, pastas. pizza, chicken rice once again! hoho~~

I guess my trip tomorrow also brightens my mood today. I am flying off tomorrow! yes... I am looking forward to seeing my distance cousins, and also one of them is getting married! Actually I have planned to go Genting last week, but have to cancel my plan due to her wedding. oh well... nevermind, afterall she's my cousin! gotta accomodate people's timing! Everyone's busy, including myself ... must plan to meet this and that like weeks before. I didnt realise I can be so busy and so systematic cuz I arrange my schedule base on my monthly calender. Amazing hor? Well i have to lah... i wanna be able to meet my friends for catching up. =)

I guess my new hairdo also does its part for cheering me up. Been feeling bored for my curls before, and finally i change my hairdo again! Aniwae, I already know wat I want for next year. haha. this is so funny!

just feel like yakking here ... cuz i getting ready to go for steamboat. yes... i coming... =)

P/S: Van's song "一直" is very touching .. check it out ... i am listening to it very often today. =)

~smile~ smile~ smile~

FaLLs in LoVe With Van Fan

Went to watch Cape No7 <<海角七號>> on Monday. Romantic love story.

Strangely, i was not so touched by the story between the love letters from a Japanese teacher to his lover who's in Taiwan. Initially, they have planned to elope together, but he calls off the plan. His reasons were told in his 7 beautifully written letters to her. The letters were found when he died, and he was already 80. Affairs of the heart buried for 60yrs. Love Letters... I did before too .... haa ... it make me recollect some old stuffs again! oh well...

Instead, I was more touched by Ah Jia played by Van in the movie. I guess the "bad boy style" is one of the reason. Van came to know Tomoko played by Chie Tanaka as they meet together for preparation for a concert at the beach. Their love is rather abrupt and unexpect to me, perhaps .. love really do not need any reason. I was touched at this scene ... when Van asks Chie Tanaka to stay or he would follow her. Just few simple words ... "留下来不要走，不然我跟你走 ." these words just touched my heart...

perhaps the role for Van is really meant for him. And after watching this, I simply become quite obessed with him... lol .. been continously listening to his songs already. With this, I can conclude I really like 摇滚乐! 五月天，信月团，范逸臣, Beyond!!! Wohoo... And i heard that 五月天 is coming soon!!!!! yes!!!! I am really looking forward to that!!! These guys really sound so good when they sings! So focus so serious so manly... oh well....

And i must say, Van really look better with short hair... keke...

Perhaps ... i need a bf who plays 摇滚乐 ? LOL...

~Current Affairs~

Am looking forward to my long break next week! Really feel that a break would do me good. Hopefully I will be motivated at work after the rest. But after serious thoughts, I think the change of environment is really necessary. I am a workaholic by nature, I like to work; loves recognition for my efforts; loves the ability of being in control of my work; feels good when someone sees me as someone intellectual and not a brainless one. In fact, my wish is to be someone with both brains and looks. Haha…

Well, really must work harder in getting my dream job at such bad times. The recession is stepping in. But, I cannot stay for comfort. Hmm… a lot of risks though. But I really wanna achieve something in my career. I have relaxed quite abit in my current job and the time is necessary for me to move on. Bless me! I need a lot of support too! Just gotta keep my fingers crossed. But, whenever I think of job switch, the incident half a yr ago always haunt me. Till date, I still cannot comprehend the reasons behind the evil plot. I cannot accept the reasons for the plot, the idea is simply too evil. It has changed my perceptions towards things and friends. Bottomline …. The hurts caused will be unforgettable.

Just did a new image again! Well, just feel the old curls were not nicely done and make me look rather mature and messy. With upcoming wedding dinners and annual dinner, decided an image change. Wohoo… Not only that, I am going to have strict diet for the next few weeks. Reduce intake of my favourite of chilli, fried stuffs, cakes, pasta … gonna miss food~~~ decide to have only soupy and less oil stuffs for the next few weeks. Hopefully to shed few kilograms! Haa!

Enough of me … the current affairs in news I guess is about the bombing at Mumbai and protestors’ attacks at Thailand. Many people have died in both situations. A lot of tensions, fears and uncertainties. Innocent lives been taken away… feel sad … pitiful… so unexpected and the people who have died … their families and all …. I wished … all these would stop soon … seriously, isn’t peace better?

Met C* about a fortnight ago. She’s always someone I look upon as someone very nice and I wanna be her friend forever one. Very sweet, kind hearted girl, innocent … we used to be very closed for a period of time, but due to some reasons, we drifted apart. Till date, I still have her bookmark hanging at my office desk’s here with words on it - “Friends to love and care, to talk and share, to trust and always being there” We did not really went through a lot of things together, but strangely I always think she is someone that I think I can trust and have a deep friendship with. I guess it’s fate? Keke… even friendship, I deemed fate… =p Anyway, she’s troubled by the problems of the heart. She’s very sad. I can tell and she’s not telling me anything but putting a very brave front. I really wish she can get through these soon. Life is always full of ups and downs … Hope to see her smiling from her heart soon…

Celebrated another best buds friend, C* last week. A simple celebration - dinner and movie. Simple, but I think for now, simple is good. Happiness can be achieved with the most simple things. Hope she enjoy her mini celebration, hope she like the gift and hope all her wishes come true.

P/S : Getting Sentimental ... Listening - Way Back Into Love ....

~knowing Myself~ ???

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).
Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You are worn out - suffering from what has been described as 'burnout' and nothing seems to stimulate you to break away from this state of lethargy. This situation is causing an acute distress situation and not being able immediately to resolve the problems is exposing you to excess stress and tension. You are endeavouring to break away from this situation by withdrawing into a state of 'Never Never Land' - an illusory substitute world in which things could be as you would like them to be. Now is the time to take time-out - to relax. A short break is all that you need and you will find that matters will resolve themselves.

P/S : Seems rather zhun .... hmm....

Balaclava Night & Lunar Night~~~~

Singapore is really a very small dot on the world map and with limited things to do… or simply cuz my life is too boring ?

Since the days I start to mix around with friends, other than shopping, movies the usual meet up is for drink, ktv or dance these days. And all activities can drain my money. LOL

I can be a rather slack person. I really prefer to rot at home and do nothing. Oh … just lie on my bed and see my favourite dramas… but these days … I really do not have much time to slack at my fav activities… my sleeping time is like only 4 – 5 hours a day during my weekdays. As a result, I usually sleep until late on sat or sun. then follow by my household activities which include washing my clothes, packing my room abit, bathing my dog … and if I am in Malaysia, of course all these activities are put on hold … and I gotta squeeze everything on weekdays … haiz…. My weekend burnt with mahjong over at Malaysia…

Squeezing my stuffs on weekdays is really tiring lor….my parents always grumble at me as I dun come straight home for dinner thus my time is not enuff for all these household activities… by the time I reach home already almost 7.30. And one I am home, I dun feel like doin anything but sleep. Lazy bum … well … I need to change my life abit…

Met F* Mei last week for a quick dinner and drinks at Balaclava. It has been awhile since I last met her and Balaclava too. She’s still very much the same but of course they are changes as we stepped into the working world. And the topic lingering us that night was “friendship”. Is there a expired date for “friendship” ? (P/S … Pics not upload yet … dun chase me … lol)

I think … “friendship” is similar to relationship. Needs frequency, trust, communication, understanding and care & concern etc … If I were to rank these points to have a good friendship, I would choose … “understanding”. If one truly understands your friend, you will know her character, her points, her flaws, her needs, her concern etc. But establishing friendship is not easy. Especially between girls I think. Personally, I think there are a lot of hidden truths, hidden lies between girls. They may be the best friends around and still have unhappiness towards each other. Jealousy, selfishness, attention all comes in resulting in all these hidden stuffs. I guess that’s with girls.

Well … I have a character that most people dislike. It’s true! Just that people do not blurt it out. Thus resulting in people refusing to establishing a true friendship with me. Friends whom I know for years always nagged at me saying that I am too trusting, naïve. I guess … for now … I need to agree… I have been betrayed my friends a couple of times and seems … I have not learnt. Comparatively, the hurt from getting betrayed by your own “close” friend compared to a partner is more painful. You shared most of your things with your friend before your partner. SO… I envy those who claims their partner is their best friend. If there’s hurt, it will be just once. LOL

Enough … Last sat I had a really wonderful time with white angel and gang. We went Lunar and ordered vodka. Initially we thought that we cannot finish that bottle cuz we dun drink much. But … we finished that bottle!!! 3 out of the group ended up drunk… LOL … Became merlions for the night … I love the ambience… Seems “ah beng and ah lian” type of clubbing but I like.. Songs by Alex~~~ wohoo~~~ a good corner that we took and we can danced at our own little area, take hell lot of crazy pictures and drink. I really had a lot of fun… It has been really long while since I dance… And it has been a long while since I can be REALLY happy? Forgetting …. Forgetting … some stuffs …..

P/S : 你不是真正的快乐,,你的笑只是你穿的保护色,你决定不恨了也决定不爱了,把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

M* is Leaving ... =(

M* will be leaving for Tokyo office this week and today is his last day in the office. The idea of him seems abrupt. Actually, he did tell me about it during our dinner the other time then; it was not confirm and I didn’t expect it to be so soon.

Well … I admit I am kinda upset. In the office, he’s the one who talked to me the most? A typical Japanese man … soft-spoken, polite & kind to ladies. A very boyish-Jap … cute one too. I think I will miss his presence in the office. Even though I do not know how long I will still stay here, but I guess I need to confirm that I will miss him. LOL… Though I may still have my “top 10” here, I guess I will be a bit affected ? Furthermore he’s one of my “top 10”!

With him leaving today, our project had a dinner on Tuesday night. As it was a “open secret” that he likes me, we are being called upon to take a lot of pictures together. And, I was teased many times to kissed him on his cheek. Eventually I did and it was my BOSS who took the picture. He willingly volunteered to be the cameraman and teased me to kiss as I may not have another chance in future. Everyone was there looking to see our picture being taken! Argh …. Shy …. Oh well … Here’s some of the crazy pictures taken. And yes, my No. 1 idol is very wild. He’s cheeky and I still like him .. and I will control my likings well…. Yes .. I would … cuz I have my “top 10” to juggle my affections…. LOL …