Today’s the 26th … haa… 26th … my bdae falls on the 26th too…
26th August is a day which I remembered...for now?
I had my convocation on this day 3 years ago …
And, this date marks my start w Xin 6 years ago ….
Time flies…
Well, not that I still haven got over him… it just occurred to me that 6yrs ago was a agreed start with him. I still rem e start … haha .. well somethings in life … just seems so difficult to forget … Dun worry my friends, I am not waiting for him anymore (am I ? ).
24th August 2002, we were chatting as usual. I am gonna try to recollect my story. Haa! We were already quite close then. We almost talked everyday on the phone and went out rather often. And … unspoken commitment that we would inform each other of our whereabouts … but we were just friends then. Then that night, he was asking if we can be or are we a couple. I still rem that I ask him to give me a week to consider. I just came out of a r/s few mths back then and I do not know if I am ready for e next one. However, the next day, I already knew my decision. Whether is it a week or mth or even a day, I knew I would want to be with him.
I guess I believe in a lot of “gan jue” then. We had enuff chemistry to make me think that he won’t be just a friend. A possibility to be more than friend. Well … I neva believe that I would be w someone whom I know for yrs. If I would have like a person, I guess I dun need yrs to make me realize that he’s e one that I would consider to be in a relationship with. My instincts … my stupid and not logic instincts… haha ..
Anyway, we were still chatting on the 25th. As the clock strikes 12 or … when it was 26th, I told him my decision. Well … I chose the date for convenience sake … cuz … 26th’s the day of my bdae too… Easier for him to rem since he’s quite a forgetful guy. Oh well…
Anyway, it’s 26th August …. But … 2008 now … 6yrs have gone. I have been through a lot of ups and downs. Though in between there’s still Mr Hellboy, he’s still e one that I think I fell for too deeply. I wondered why… Am I Silly or not? I do not know … I only know that, for him, I am willing to do a lot of things, and trust him for things that I should not. Even a lie comes from him, I choose to believe him. Only God can understand why? But I am not that perfect lah … I may have done a lot for him but I have also make him sad? Well … that’s PAST … Mr Xin and Me …
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
August ... Me ... dramatic again ..
Wohoo .. it has been a long time since I wrote my blog. I have been Too busy at work, staying late as my team is leaving offshore. They will be leaving for a period of about 2 months and this time round my open Idol will be here first with another engineer. They will be only going in the next phase. Does this sounds good news to me? This sounds dangerous though. Haha .. Anyway, since it has been about a month since I last blogged, I have so much to tell! As I do not wanna forget each memorable incident, I decide to blog them according to incidents. Hehe
Month of August has been an exciting month for me. A lot of ups and downs in this month; a lot of happiness and sadness. It is true! Well, nevertheless, this is all part of life. An exciting life is of course, more interesting than a boring mundane life! Hehe
My August activities includes as below:
1. Backstabbing by anymomous “trusted one” .. this is pretty exciting, drama like .. Well, but thanks to this Anymomous person, I decided to stay with my current company still … hehe
2. just both of us alone dinner with my jap engineer at Hotel Royal … Sounds juicy? Lol .. Just a night of dinner that’s all. I swore.
3. My Project Dinner, followed by drinking session and ktv … with my japs, sometimes I wonder if they have double personality. They are so different during work and after work. But, with this gatherings, I really felt lucky to be working with them and being taken care of.
4. Dinner at Gyu-Kaku .. a last minute arrangement, with my J* colleague and a manager who I deemed to like her.
5. Dinner with my pals at Raffles City with a touching move from them. Well, afterall conflicts here and there, hidden hates and likes, friends who know you for long simply just know you inside out and there for you even though you dun say it so.
6. Japanese courses for September … I decide to continue my Jap course which I learnt 7 yrs ago. Yes, 7 yrs ago. I have clearly forgotten the basics and I think I still like Jap. Judging from my likes with Takeshi Kaneshiro, I think I wanna continue my Jap all the way thru while working here and then move on. Cool,
7. Meet up with my dearie, after her training. And … she’s off for flying again. Though I know her for only 5 yrs, I really like her as my friend. Even though I may not have know her deep enough, but we just clicked. Our similarities, our rubbish, our craziness, our love for the one we love. Just too alike. But I am wilder. Haa
8. Dinner @ Raffles City again, followed a healthy session @ Ocha but followed drinking at Clarke Quay. And meeting up a 5-digit guy. He’s … not very impressive at our first meetup though… ahya … Missing my Friday nights again.
Things have been happening so much to me. And I haven been meeting my friends. Time is nto enough. I have not been talking or even meeting Winz, my angels, E* which I promise I Would, Cri*, She*. And next week is already Sept.! Work probably will not be as busy as before, but September is full of activities again. Jac* bdae is coming and we already planned to have dinner at Minori, then K* dearie’s bdae is coming too. Her schedule is not fixed yet but we gonna have a good session as well. Plus, a Used-to-be Close brother’s wedding dinner in September. A visit to my colleague’s house as she gave birth to a 2.88kg girl on 18th august 2008 at 8pm.( so many 8’s!) And, if my lessons commerce, it will be in September too. Plus, someone’s birthday in September. I do not know if I would celebrate with him. This is a tough nut to crack. I do not know if I should. Well, nevertheless, it’s gonna be another busy busy time for me. Plus plus Plus!!! My swimming sessions with White Angel and jogging with my newly bought Mizuno’s shoes, so far only ran once with it!! Haha
I gonna pen off for now cuz I am going out … as for the details of each activities … when I come back ba … lol
Month of August has been an exciting month for me. A lot of ups and downs in this month; a lot of happiness and sadness. It is true! Well, nevertheless, this is all part of life. An exciting life is of course, more interesting than a boring mundane life! Hehe
My August activities includes as below:
1. Backstabbing by anymomous “trusted one” .. this is pretty exciting, drama like .. Well, but thanks to this Anymomous person, I decided to stay with my current company still … hehe
2. just both of us alone dinner with my jap engineer at Hotel Royal … Sounds juicy? Lol .. Just a night of dinner that’s all. I swore.
3. My Project Dinner, followed by drinking session and ktv … with my japs, sometimes I wonder if they have double personality. They are so different during work and after work. But, with this gatherings, I really felt lucky to be working with them and being taken care of.
4. Dinner at Gyu-Kaku .. a last minute arrangement, with my J* colleague and a manager who I deemed to like her.
5. Dinner with my pals at Raffles City with a touching move from them. Well, afterall conflicts here and there, hidden hates and likes, friends who know you for long simply just know you inside out and there for you even though you dun say it so.
6. Japanese courses for September … I decide to continue my Jap course which I learnt 7 yrs ago. Yes, 7 yrs ago. I have clearly forgotten the basics and I think I still like Jap. Judging from my likes with Takeshi Kaneshiro, I think I wanna continue my Jap all the way thru while working here and then move on. Cool,
7. Meet up with my dearie, after her training. And … she’s off for flying again. Though I know her for only 5 yrs, I really like her as my friend. Even though I may not have know her deep enough, but we just clicked. Our similarities, our rubbish, our craziness, our love for the one we love. Just too alike. But I am wilder. Haa
8. Dinner @ Raffles City again, followed a healthy session @ Ocha but followed drinking at Clarke Quay. And meeting up a 5-digit guy. He’s … not very impressive at our first meetup though… ahya … Missing my Friday nights again.
Things have been happening so much to me. And I haven been meeting my friends. Time is nto enough. I have not been talking or even meeting Winz, my angels, E* which I promise I Would, Cri*, She*. And next week is already Sept.! Work probably will not be as busy as before, but September is full of activities again. Jac* bdae is coming and we already planned to have dinner at Minori, then K* dearie’s bdae is coming too. Her schedule is not fixed yet but we gonna have a good session as well. Plus, a Used-to-be Close brother’s wedding dinner in September. A visit to my colleague’s house as she gave birth to a 2.88kg girl on 18th august 2008 at 8pm.( so many 8’s!) And, if my lessons commerce, it will be in September too. Plus, someone’s birthday in September. I do not know if I would celebrate with him. This is a tough nut to crack. I do not know if I should. Well, nevertheless, it’s gonna be another busy busy time for me. Plus plus Plus!!! My swimming sessions with White Angel and jogging with my newly bought Mizuno’s shoes, so far only ran once with it!! Haha
I gonna pen off for now cuz I am going out … as for the details of each activities … when I come back ba … lol
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
As if ...
been stalking and finding evidences of hellBoy cheating on me for long .. Till date, sadly to say that he's a good actor cum leaves no clues at all for me to track ... lol
and .. "be nice to me and I will be 10 times nicer to you" AS IF.. self proclaming that you are nice is just not enough. Coverin up for your hidden secrets by monetary stuffs is not acceptable. you sure do not know that...
just a note for you man, ur best friend is not that best afterall. he's a stalker as well, haunting me on msn. yes .. i knew it already... so wat ya a LCF student ... that doesnt give you a right to act, to hurt or to stalk a person.
whatever it is ... it's you who make me realise that Hidden Secrets can be scary ...
and .. "be nice to me and I will be 10 times nicer to you" AS IF.. self proclaming that you are nice is just not enough. Coverin up for your hidden secrets by monetary stuffs is not acceptable. you sure do not know that...
just a note for you man, ur best friend is not that best afterall. he's a stalker as well, haunting me on msn. yes .. i knew it already... so wat ya a LCF student ... that doesnt give you a right to act, to hurt or to stalk a person.
whatever it is ... it's you who make me realise that Hidden Secrets can be scary ...
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