Work and work

these days i am no longer a vase in the office. I cant do more manicure nor can i wear nice dresses or even heels to work. With duties like office today, i cant be a vase that i used to be ...

it has been 2 weeks at my new office. Instead of dealing with cooking oil back then, this time round.. cookwares are what my coy is doing now... i am moving closer closer to dream of a eatery related business! hahahaha.. Probably, the next time i will deal with direct raw materials like vegetables, fruits or chicken or fish ... haha ...

Anyway, i was almost to submitting my resignation letter last week. After 2 hours of product training, i was left with my colleague to learn the ropes from her. No directions no other instructions, i was cursing then.. yet another coy that has hidden problems? The most senior one is the director herself who has been with the coy for abt 8 yrs. the next senior is warehouse uncle who joined the coy 1.5yrs ago.. my other colleagues worked less than half a yr. thats abt it ..and i tot fengshui wasnt too gd when one of my colleague fell sick on my first day and she was mc for a week. The 2nd day of my work, my another colleague was hospitalised.. further to the drama that came, my promoter called in to resign his work. His wife also called in to say that she is thinking of resignation too. i joked then "fengshui no gd .. prob i shld move too?"

on top of all these fengshui things, there are other factors. my KC spider colleague plus the fact that i gonna burn my time with work with events now and then. oh yes.. plus money. It is definitely not a highly paid job that i have took up, and i also didnt understand why i didnt ask for more when i sign the appointment letter. i must be dreaming. :( well i blamed it for my admiration of the director for that. haha.

anyway, i gave up the thoughts of it when my other colleague came back. i was really testg my tolearances when there were already lotsa frustrations coming from KC spider and really couldnt tolerate her constant rattling plus fav phrases. she just keep harping and harping non-stop. And i lost my cool and quarrel with her... i couldnt stand it.. i did regret abit but i glad i could handle it more professionally in a way that i just let her rattle all the way when we were in the cab and i told her 2 hours later that everything is due to communication problem and we must not do it again. haha .. i actually did that. just when i think i will be dragging myself to work frm then onwards, had a causual chat with my director and other colleagues that i realize the problem is not me, it's her. she has been giving pple problems; and i tot it is due to my childishness then. i was so glad and relieved. plus in fact my director didnt appear so scary as wat she claimed after i had a talk with her then.

i decided to stay to further add colours to my resume. however, it's really kinda lotsa hardwork at work. alot of hands on stuffs. hands on doesnt mean just gettg my hands dirty .. i had to do price tagging, count stocks, shrink wrapping and i sweat in my warehouse. it's really tiring. though it's really not totally my job, due to shortage of manpower, i have to help out. and my kc spider stayed in the aircon office continue to busy with her work.

after a long day at work, i reflected again. why am i always like not smooth in my career? i am kinda upset seriously. and my friends.. we never hang out more like we used to do .. i just feel so upset. i know positive things follow positive energy.. but at times.. my positive attitude just drains off... well ... just hope my director will appreciate my work... haha ... as wat i mention during interview, hope our minds think alike... she's a smart lady.. i wished i can be like her.. she's smart and i really feel that she's rather successful. An Ex SIA girl to a director now, plus she can do everything including warehouse stuffs despite her position. .. not many pple do that .. but i am shocked that we had the same mindset when she try to motivate me few days ago. "work hard for the company just like if it belongs to you. " i always think it that way as well...nevertheless.. i feel normal once more for now and will continue to stay on and fight .. just hope my career will blossom~~~ =)

gotta pen off now ... tired ...

P/S: thanks for bring a fan of my blogger puppy crush~~ i didnt think there will be anyone who would read my blog anymore.. anyway, it's a gd way to blog my feelings... no one can hear my whiney these days... everyone is busy with his or her life ... different goals, different purposes in life... i just gotta hang on myself to be strong! haha

P/S again: HURRAY!!! no event tis weekend ... can have a good rest~~ next week will be a tough one for me .... oh well ...

bye~~~

Waddddddddddddddddda i wantttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

went for 2 massages last week... really felt that i needed more as my shoulders are still so tight and one of the therapist said that my frequent headache could be due to my tight shoulders which causes blockage of enough oxygen to my head thus leading to headache. she sounded convincing enough but massage is a expensive activity.. oh well..

had a wonderful monday as i went for massage with bestie as her bdae gift. had ktv early in the morning before we head for the massage then follow by heavy buffet. it has been so so so long since i go out so so so early to enjoy myself. how i wish i could have done more last week before i start work ..

but nevertheless.. had a simple italian dinner with the pretty babes, met my friend for a quick dessert session, then accompany one of my friend to do shopping for her bbq. time just goes by so fast when ya enjoying ...

also spend wonderful time at home with my siblings. as i spend most of my time outside working and with my friends,i loved my time spend with my xiao di and xiao mei. though they were busy preparing for exams, i love to be around them .. hehe ... tease them awhile and i get back to watch my tv and pc ... hereby i wish they get good results .. i knew my brother is giving himself alot of pressure hope he will relax abit ~~ oh ya .. also had a late night to the airport with dad and mum plus sis and Wee.. 4am .. we were at T3 ... we went for supper at 2 to Redhill for Yong Tau Foo .. it was too full and we ended at T3 to walk abt ... but at T3, we rest for another coffee break.... and we still claimed to be very full... haha ..

just started my first day at work today ... i think i am not very used to the envt and so kinda upset ... but i guess i will adapt soon and hopefully it will be a good one that i hope to be .. i dun wish to job hope that much ... i wanna establish my career soon .. too many friends are doing so so much better than me ... seriously, i felt so useless... i really felt happy for my friends who can do so much better than me but i do feel myself so useless...

but ... i will survive... gonna be successful ... dun want people to look down on me cuz i know that there are pple out there who does that ..

well.. i will prove them wrong ... for pple who truly cares for me ... i really thank you so much ... your presence matters.... i wanna thank my parents also for their upbringing ... many times i felt they do not understand me or really treat me as a kid .. but really .. i am too naive... haha .... hope i will be smarter soon....

gonna zzz... kinda tired..... emotionally and physically ...

night!

P/S: i jogged!!! haha hopefully i will continue to do that for more... though i hated jogging... haha

I am Blissed Enough

had dinner with the girls on tuesday night and heard that there's voluntary work done overseas. was amazed and got me interested and i spend time surfing time for voluntary in sg and overseas. in fact before, i already had the tot of doing voluntary work especially with kids and youths. i love kids and i felt i could do something especially for delinquents or orphans ; but so far only think and no action ...

today was browsing the net and saw many organizations worldwide having voluntary programs and then i realize that there is so much things that i could and able to do. but i never tot of it before. especially teaching in schools. i felt i could and it would be great sense of satisfaction. but seriously, saying is easy. doing is tough. usually the living conditions is not good and i dun know if i am able to take it. imagine before i even try .. there are alot of people who do not have a choice but to cope with such conditions .. i am really blissed ... and i should be grateful ..

looking at the kids living conditions, sad stories behind .. i cried... i cant help but wanted to do something immediate if i could .. but i think i am not ready for doing voluntary work overseas ... i think i cant ... to the volunteers ... i seriously salute to them .. guys out there ... u guys are good!

in life, there are really many many things to do .. yet there are many pple out there who do not know wat can they do. nowadays, many like myself feels so empty and aimless .. many people doing comparison, being jealous, find faults with pple, always feel bored at home .. feel down, dream big and and just hope they will achieve it .. wat is e essence of life ....

anyway ... i think for now i hope i will settle well for my new job starting next monday. once my work starts and if it's fine, i am going to apply for voluntary work in singapore. i need to start somewhere. i am also planning to get a child sponsorship for a child. this is a commitment and i hope i can do it well thus hopefully i will be financially independent enough to accommodate this plan of mine in future.

yes i wanna travel for my hols. and i hope at the same time i can participate in the international voluntary project at least once in 3 yrs.

yes ... it's a random planning ... but i hope i can do this. though i know many times i failed my planning .. i really wish this time round i will be successful.

i am blissed enough ... i am grateful for it .. and i shall try my best to at least make another 1 person to be blissed afterall.