Purpose in Life

Life’s short. So have you led a fruitful life? I have led a busy life. I wonder if it’s really because of time management. I probably do not know how to lay my priorities right. Thus I am always rushing for things here and there. It’s also perhaps the reason why I am not successful in my life now.

I hope to be successful one day. What is successful to me? I really do hope to have a business of my own. I guess I probably can only achieve it via Facebook now… Opening up restaurants/parks/farms is just at the click of the mouse on FB. The real idea of business seems so far away. No capital, no fantastic idea no luck… I probably will be an employee for the rest of my life. Well, it is not bad to be an employee actually. There is no so much of responsibility within plus you can just quit if you really want to. Of course, the best is good pay and good boss. I would say till now, I am blessed with good bosses. I am really glad with it as I do not have the extra pressure or stress to deal with terrible bosses or cunning colleagues. My bosses have been nice and I do have colleagues as my good friends. However, I am always on the lookout for new job. Not that I keep changing my job; my current company is only my second company that I worked with only. My beginning was at a manufacturing company and I learnt quite a bit from my direct boss. He did teach me a lot of stuffs and I also learn a lot from other seniors from the ex-company. I am glad once again. If not for them, I probably wouldn’t have the chance to go overseas business trip alone and probably would not learn business skills as much. The experience is not that much but it was a good start.

Now with my current company, I felt a lack of recognition. I do my best as much I am given and I dare to say that I did what I was expected and perhaps more that that. I am truthful about that. However, there are limitations to where I can develop. In terms of money as well… the increment… oh well… Bosses have been fairly nice to me though sometimes I feel times of unfairness when lotsa of work are given to me and colleagues are walking here and there. I guess this is something I cant do much about it; I can only grumble and complain/whine to my friends/colleagues or my brother. So I really want to venture out in 2010. I need to. In order to meet the challenges and my dreams/ambitions; I need to move. If I am paid super duper well and just need to do brainless job, I am fine with it. Haha. But will there be such an opportunity? LOL or people just say get a rich man and married. Is there such a nice, rich guy around? ; If there is, my chance? It is just so hard to believe in that hope.

FB is so good for making connections. Establishing contacts with lost friends and colleagues. It is simply too good and too powerful. Found many of my friends via FB and so glad to be updated with their status through this powerful tool. It also affected me at times. Well, I am asking for it. LOL.

Saw many of my friends with a good career. Envy their life. Envy their money. Envy their luck. I feel happy for them. Seriously I swear. But many times I wish, I can be the same. Not only that,a lot of my friends are married and seems blessed. Of course, pictures can be deceiving but they do look happy. At times, I wish I can be like them. Of course, they would have their own problems and pain. And happiness really depends on individuals I guess. I think I really need to stop comparing. From the bottom of my heart, I feel happy for all my friends who are happy and blessed. And I wish I can be like of them. =)

Even including Xin. I have remove Xin from my FB and refuse to add him on fb as I do not wanna feel sad because of seeing him on fb. He has changed and leading a rather fruitful life from what I see. I feel happy for him though things have to go through this to change. Anyway, perhaps many things are destined to happen in this sense. He’s part of my life before. He affected me, gave me happiness/pain/dramas. But nevertheless, I chose it. LOL

Life is like a box of chocolates. You’ll never know what you gonna get.