~Current Affairs~

Am looking forward to my long break next week! Really feel that a break would do me good. Hopefully I will be motivated at work after the rest. But after serious thoughts, I think the change of environment is really necessary. I am a workaholic by nature, I like to work; loves recognition for my efforts; loves the ability of being in control of my work; feels good when someone sees me as someone intellectual and not a brainless one. In fact, my wish is to be someone with both brains and looks. Haha…

Well, really must work harder in getting my dream job at such bad times. The recession is stepping in. But, I cannot stay for comfort. Hmm… a lot of risks though. But I really wanna achieve something in my career. I have relaxed quite abit in my current job and the time is necessary for me to move on. Bless me! I need a lot of support too! Just gotta keep my fingers crossed. But, whenever I think of job switch, the incident half a yr ago always haunt me. Till date, I still cannot comprehend the reasons behind the evil plot. I cannot accept the reasons for the plot, the idea is simply too evil. It has changed my perceptions towards things and friends. Bottomline …. The hurts caused will be unforgettable.

Just did a new image again! Well, just feel the old curls were not nicely done and make me look rather mature and messy. With upcoming wedding dinners and annual dinner, decided an image change. Wohoo… Not only that, I am going to have strict diet for the next few weeks. Reduce intake of my favourite of chilli, fried stuffs, cakes, pasta … gonna miss food~~~ decide to have only soupy and less oil stuffs for the next few weeks. Hopefully to shed few kilograms! Haa!

Enough of me … the current affairs in news I guess is about the bombing at Mumbai and protestors’ attacks at Thailand. Many people have died in both situations. A lot of tensions, fears and uncertainties. Innocent lives been taken away… feel sad … pitiful… so unexpected and the people who have died … their families and all …. I wished … all these would stop soon … seriously, isn’t peace better?

Met C* about a fortnight ago. She’s always someone I look upon as someone very nice and I wanna be her friend forever one. Very sweet, kind hearted girl, innocent … we used to be very closed for a period of time, but due to some reasons, we drifted apart. Till date, I still have her bookmark hanging at my office desk’s here with words on it - “Friends to love and care, to talk and share, to trust and always being there” We did not really went through a lot of things together, but strangely I always think she is someone that I think I can trust and have a deep friendship with. I guess it’s fate? Keke… even friendship, I deemed fate… =p Anyway, she’s troubled by the problems of the heart. She’s very sad. I can tell and she’s not telling me anything but putting a very brave front. I really wish she can get through these soon. Life is always full of ups and downs … Hope to see her smiling from her heart soon…

Celebrated another best buds friend, C* last week. A simple celebration - dinner and movie. Simple, but I think for now, simple is good. Happiness can be achieved with the most simple things. Hope she enjoy her mini celebration, hope she like the gift and hope all her wishes come true.

P/S : Getting Sentimental ... Listening - Way Back Into Love ....

~knowing Myself~ ???

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).
Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You are worn out - suffering from what has been described as 'burnout' and nothing seems to stimulate you to break away from this state of lethargy. This situation is causing an acute distress situation and not being able immediately to resolve the problems is exposing you to excess stress and tension. You are endeavouring to break away from this situation by withdrawing into a state of 'Never Never Land' - an illusory substitute world in which things could be as you would like them to be. Now is the time to take time-out - to relax. A short break is all that you need and you will find that matters will resolve themselves.

P/S : Seems rather zhun .... hmm....

Balaclava Night & Lunar Night~~~~

Singapore is really a very small dot on the world map and with limited things to do… or simply cuz my life is too boring ?

Since the days I start to mix around with friends, other than shopping, movies the usual meet up is for drink, ktv or dance these days. And all activities can drain my money. LOL

I can be a rather slack person. I really prefer to rot at home and do nothing. Oh … just lie on my bed and see my favourite dramas… but these days … I really do not have much time to slack at my fav activities… my sleeping time is like only 4 – 5 hours a day during my weekdays. As a result, I usually sleep until late on sat or sun. then follow by my household activities which include washing my clothes, packing my room abit, bathing my dog … and if I am in Malaysia, of course all these activities are put on hold … and I gotta squeeze everything on weekdays … haiz…. My weekend burnt with mahjong over at Malaysia…

Squeezing my stuffs on weekdays is really tiring lor….my parents always grumble at me as I dun come straight home for dinner thus my time is not enuff for all these household activities… by the time I reach home already almost 7.30. And one I am home, I dun feel like doin anything but sleep. Lazy bum … well … I need to change my life abit…

Met F* Mei last week for a quick dinner and drinks at Balaclava. It has been awhile since I last met her and Balaclava too. She’s still very much the same but of course they are changes as we stepped into the working world. And the topic lingering us that night was “friendship”. Is there a expired date for “friendship” ? (P/S … Pics not upload yet … dun chase me … lol)

I think … “friendship” is similar to relationship. Needs frequency, trust, communication, understanding and care & concern etc … If I were to rank these points to have a good friendship, I would choose … “understanding”. If one truly understands your friend, you will know her character, her points, her flaws, her needs, her concern etc. But establishing friendship is not easy. Especially between girls I think. Personally, I think there are a lot of hidden truths, hidden lies between girls. They may be the best friends around and still have unhappiness towards each other. Jealousy, selfishness, attention all comes in resulting in all these hidden stuffs. I guess that’s with girls.

Well … I have a character that most people dislike. It’s true! Just that people do not blurt it out. Thus resulting in people refusing to establishing a true friendship with me. Friends whom I know for years always nagged at me saying that I am too trusting, naïve. I guess … for now … I need to agree… I have been betrayed my friends a couple of times and seems … I have not learnt. Comparatively, the hurt from getting betrayed by your own “close” friend compared to a partner is more painful. You shared most of your things with your friend before your partner. SO… I envy those who claims their partner is their best friend. If there’s hurt, it will be just once. LOL

Enough … Last sat I had a really wonderful time with white angel and gang. We went Lunar and ordered vodka. Initially we thought that we cannot finish that bottle cuz we dun drink much. But … we finished that bottle!!! 3 out of the group ended up drunk… LOL … Became merlions for the night … I love the ambience… Seems “ah beng and ah lian” type of clubbing but I like.. Songs by Alex~~~ wohoo~~~ a good corner that we took and we can danced at our own little area, take hell lot of crazy pictures and drink. I really had a lot of fun… It has been really long while since I dance… And it has been a long while since I can be REALLY happy? Forgetting …. Forgetting … some stuffs …..

P/S : 你不是真正的快乐,,你的笑只是你穿的保护色,你决定不恨了也决定不爱了,把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

M* is Leaving ... =(

M* will be leaving for Tokyo office this week and today is his last day in the office. The idea of him seems abrupt. Actually, he did tell me about it during our dinner the other time then; it was not confirm and I didn’t expect it to be so soon.

Well … I admit I am kinda upset. In the office, he’s the one who talked to me the most? A typical Japanese man … soft-spoken, polite & kind to ladies. A very boyish-Jap … cute one too. I think I will miss his presence in the office. Even though I do not know how long I will still stay here, but I guess I need to confirm that I will miss him. LOL… Though I may still have my “top 10” here, I guess I will be a bit affected ? Furthermore he’s one of my “top 10”!

With him leaving today, our project had a dinner on Tuesday night. As it was a “open secret” that he likes me, we are being called upon to take a lot of pictures together. And, I was teased many times to kissed him on his cheek. Eventually I did and it was my BOSS who took the picture. He willingly volunteered to be the cameraman and teased me to kiss as I may not have another chance in future. Everyone was there looking to see our picture being taken! Argh …. Shy …. Oh well … Here’s some of the crazy pictures taken. And yes, my No. 1 idol is very wild. He’s cheeky and I still like him .. and I will control my likings well…. Yes .. I would … cuz I have my “top 10” to juggle my affections…. LOL …

Encounter with Xin … in the dreams ….

“doesn’t he has a gf ?”

“yah, he has”

“then why is he with you? Where’s his gf?”

“I dun know…”

Memories of the past flashed by…

“… where’s your gf now ?”

“ … we’ve broke up … she’s now over in hong kong already …”

He looked at me with a look that I just simply could not resist. Well …

Just weeks ago, I called up his mum and chatted with her. Just a simple “hello” with no other reasons. His parents have been nice to me back then and it was only a form of respect when I decided to call auntie. In fact, I was in town and wanted to treat uncle for a quick lunch near his office. But I forgot that he already moved his office thus I saved my money and chatted a it with auntie.

Auntie asked about my dad’s work and my house financial situation. Then. …. My work and relationship. I am always at a lookout for better work and prospects… =p As for relationship, declaring being single sounds like hinting to her something. And, inevitably, auntie will comment that till date she does not understand why we did not end up together. Both uncle and she thought that we would get married as they see our picture with “everlasting” in his room. Well, I just gotta repeat that things is pretty unexpected. And, to make things clear to her, I told her that I am still single because I have not met the right guy and I was attached before after the breakup with Xin.

She also sound very surprised when I told her that we did meet up once in a blue blue moon. And she surprised me by asking me who was the one who initiated the meet up. Haa.. Well, I guess she probably think that I still have not got over … Well… Anyway, I told her Xin and his gf seems good together and he has changed quite a bit. I also commented that I think the change was good and she is like a good influence to him.

Anyway, I almost forgotten about this “hello” call until I dreamt of Xin yesterday… haa …

Dreams make wonders …

Long Weekend~~~Thoughts

Apply leave from Thursday noon till Monday, four days of not working! It was a good break for me. I feel much better and not so grouchy at work. Fingers crossed … only started an hour of work. Keke …

Had a wedding dinner over at Malaysia ( the XX time I attended wedding) Renewed my passport and times of mahjong. Fruitful time spent.

I realized something. I am always being the one who is “bullied”. At work, with my lunch khakis, I always kena being “suan”. At home, I kena bombarded by my sis, my bro, mum and even my dad at times. Then with my relatives, I am also the one being bombarded. Sometimes I just wonder… Am I really dumb or simply not enough “power” to retaliate or just being nice. Hmm…

My new Favourite ~ Raymond Lam ~
http://blog.tvb.com/raymondlam

ChatterBox

Haiz…it has been about three years plus since I last took up studies? And … super duper stressed even though I just started. I remembered I took Basic German in my ex-company when they sponsor me then, however the sponsorship did not continue as they said that they dun see any advantage in me continuing…hmm….what an excuse … oh well …. Currently not any better also … my company is not willing to sponsor too due to the fact that they dun see the need… haa .. and companies these days still say what learning organization… do they ?

Well…now juggle between course and work … I thinking of working part time also … time is not enough … I need to exercise regularly, attend my course regularly … oh my oh my …. Plus occasional drinking and eating sessions with my colleagues here … hoho …

Last week at iguana, tried the Mexican food there… yummy … also drank like nobody’s business … margaritas, tequila, beer…. And we moved on to wine’s connection after for red wine … wanted to go double o but super duper long queue! Guess the renovation of MOS has caused a stir in discos… haha .. I no regular clubber but really kinda miss my dancing times …. Keke …

Oh well .. long weekend’s coming soon! Really looking forward … I need to rest! Mentally, physically and my pocket too! *winks*

To my trips "khakis" - Taiwan/Hong Kong/ Korea/Japan/Maldives … Please … motivate me and we work towards our trip plan! Yohoo~~~

Plus .. I need to shed fats for my best pal wedding end of the year …. I need to!!! =p

Happy Deepavali Everyone … 加油 to me ….

BLiSsed … foR now … anD forever … =)

Ms BuSy's cuRReNt AffAiRs ... =p

my head's feeling heavy again today. I am not a good drinker and I did not drink a lot ytd. Only a glass of beer, a glass of red wine plus a class of whisky – my head’s spinning again. Dinner’s on a Chinese man from my company, a farewell dinner for my General Admin Manager here. And, it’s at one of my favourite restaurant – Thai Village Sharkfin Chinese Restaurant! Located at Goodwood Park Hotel – it’s definitely not cheap. The man’s pretty rich though I seldom see him in Singapore office. Well, I am lucky to be invited. =p The signature sharkfin~~~ oh my ..おいしい! After a sumptuous dinner, we head on to K*’s favourite ktv again.

I supposed to have my class ytd. Well, I’m lucky enough that I can change my schedule as long as there is available make-up. It was a farewell for the manager and I feel bad for rejecting him. Keke. Class’s stressing me out. As I am attending an ongoing class, I am expected to be familiar with the earlier on classes – white hair coming out. =p

Think I rely too much on my credit card .. I feeling the pain and and foresee a tornado coming along. Serious. No kidding. I am tempted to buy a LV bag that I been eyeing recently. Shall I?haha … I am also thinking of buying HTC diamond… wonder if it’s good … lol…

I guess I cant go TW this year le. Big disappointment. Oh well… Gotta shelve until next may-june. Argh. Again and again. Damn it. Oh well… sad lor … no one can understand my disappointment.

No Name

~ Happy people do not necessarily have the best of all. They simply appreciate what they receive in their way ~

sounds right, but wonder how many people mange to achieve that?

oh ... i am simply tired .. too much events and it is really taxing. when will it ends, i wonder. simply like the idea of going back home and slacked on my bed the moment i finish from my work; but many a times, i failed.

*yawns* there i go again, in the cold comforts of my office space where i am typing this. work is finally at its slow pace but i am hooked to games recently. From Innocent Life of my PSP to Brain Challenge and Bubble town in Facebook, i am hooked.

i need a break. planning to go penang over the weekend, take a bus on thurs night and come back on sun night, any takers? i miss my hokkien mee, penang laksa, and my all-time fav Kopi! and i need to go and see my mum's bestie and apologise for MIA at her daughter's wedding night. haa. well, work was busy and i broke then, oh well...

even though i just recover from my food poisoning, i resumed my usual intake of chilli. i really cannot live without spicy chilli. but i think i need to reduce my intake of that, it's straining my weak gastric and i knew it. argh!

*aching back*10 minutes of steps, 15 mins of cyling and 2000m of tugging boat? plus 45mins of water soaking .... resulted ... overslept of 45mins and aching back, wobbly feet. haha ...

cracking my mind of my biz, training my brain power, keeping my body fit, waiting to attend classes... life's busy ... and i hope i am happy ... am i ?

is that what i want?

2nd Week of September

My blogging has become a weekly basis, on my busy activities here and there. LOL

No time to even sort out my thoughts over my life, my plans or whatsoever. I am pretty enjoying my current life, though occasionally problems here and there. At least, I do not have to juggle my time between commitments towards my family, partner and friends. Through past experiences, I think I am always caught in such situations and resulted in really poor time management. On top of it, my relationship always seems problematic and dramatic; causing me endless headaches, heartaches. I mean in all relationships, there is happiness. But mine seems … I guess no one has gone through more than me. Ok, enough of whining.

I had another busy week. I went pics taking at Chinese Garden, celebration of birthday with Jac and Miss Blur, Pei’s house to see her baby, Msia for wedding dinner and meeting up with a nice lady who found my cardholder. Hoho…. Busy … busy … busy.

With the Mid-Autumn festival, Chinese Garden as usual with their lantern shows. This year’s theme --- Hello Kitty! Many characters from the scenario family is there, and of course --- my favourite --- Bad Badtz Maru!!! I find this year’s them much better than last year and pics appear nicer as the characters are brighter. As usual, I drove and as usual, I make a blunder on that day. Haa! After 2 hours in the Chinese garden, we were preparing to go home. And been thirsty, I drove to a drive thru Macdonald. And … I drove in … from the exit!!! I am amazed at my superb skills. Instead of going in from the entrance, I entered the drive-thru from the exit. My family was roaring with laughter and also embarrassed to the core. =p Lucky, there was no heavy traffic, otherwise, I would think that I would be captured in Stomp or somewhere. LOL Anyway, check it out if you guys have time.

Singapore Chinese Garden Lantern Festival 2008F8 – Hello Kitty Go Races!29th August to 28th September 20086pm to 11pm daily

Sweet Couple My Fav!!! Preparing for F1!!

Wednesday was Jac’s birthday (and my idol’s too =p). Well, me and Xuan planned a mini surprise for her. I guess we are already too old for more surprises for birthdays these days. It will be really a surprise if it happens occasionally, too much become too expected. Hee … We planned a treasure box for her, with her pressies inside. We really hope she like it. As we planned, we had our dinner at Minori, Japanese food being Jac’s favourite. We even had abit of Sake and many orders as it is a buffet dinner. Nothing much but the waiter was a spoiler cuz he asked loudly if he can bring the cake out! Jac didn’t know about the cake, but the spoiler brought us continuous laughter though. =)

Birthday Girl 3 of us

Then at 2am, Ms Blur sms me asking if I am free to meet her the next day. I was already sound asleep and planned to go home (the endless activites draining me), but afterall Ms Blur being my good friend and she is always busy due to her work; I went on to meet her. And, I had to rush out my surprises for her! I wanted to buy her some protection charm due to her jobscope, thus I went down to the House of Fengshui and check it out. At there, I ordered a small bouquet of sunflower. And, I bought something at HOFS for myself and for my house too! It burnt another hole in my pocket but I guess it is worth it; I hope everything goes well for my whole family, myself and of course Ms Blur. Ms Blur loves the flower and apparently I am the second gf to give her flower. She’s like me, simply likes flowers. Haa! And I love the photo frame that I have make for her. The pics are still with her. Well, I really love it cuz it's a handmade one with our names and we look like princessess!! Oh well ... We had a simply dinner as I was really late and we headed to Outdoors for drinks. We both like Outdoors and decided that it will be our fav hangout since. With a spacious smoking area plus music plus drinks, we will meet there again. And … someone bought us drinks for that night! Lol… A rather suave German was sitting beside us that day. He joined in our conversations and it became a 3 person drinking session. He’s very chatty and friendly. He’s married btw and stayed in Indonesia most of the time. And when he left, he gave us a kiss on the cheek and said that he bought us drinks for the birthday girl. We ere both stunned but amazed that we still can get free drinks. LOL

I guess that night the mixture of drinks got me hangover the next day, cuz I lost my cardholder! I really sotong lor, I lose it without knowing. When I was at the MRT station, I just thought that I didn’t bring my cardholder out. Then an hour later, the bank called me and claimed that someone found my card and she’s on the other line! I was stunned and really appreciated for her efforts. There was no identification in the bank other than my cards. She was so nice to call the bank and arranged a meet up with me to return me my stuffs. Well, I bought her some famous amos biscuits and I guess need to treat her dinner one of these days since she stayed near me. I think I am really lucky. I am really very grateful for her kindness. Thanks Maria!

Over the weekend, I had to attend a wedding dinner in Malaysia. I went to blow straight my hair and I simply like the image. I guess I would rebond my hair if I can afford it this year! LOL

Temporary Straight Hair Trying to act Natural

Ok, I have to stop. Been really loh soh. Well… too much activities. And I ate jap food ytd again. My relationship with my project people is getting on good. Hehe. Check my pics out. A pity that note all of them are inside. Some are over offshore. Well, they are coming back this week, and I guess that will be another dinner and drinks once again. LOL


Prayers ... LOL Crazy Us

1st Week of Sept only ….

Just like the title of entry, it’s only the first week and my schedule is rather packed … Monday was dinner with my family, a last minute decision. But I had a very filling meal at Aijisen. The curry rice is rather saltish…too much … But the Hokkaido scallops is nice, thumbs up for that. Yummy… my favourite … scallops … haa…

Finally, I caught my show in action, “Money No Enough”. It’s a rather heart-warming show with my tears rolling at some scenes. Catch my critics at my movies blog. Haa. This time round, the show emphasizes on a lot on kinship. Looking at the wife and mum in the show, women really sacrifices a lot for those whom they deeply in love with. The lyrics of the songs are so meaningful that tears just rolled down my cheeks though I really did try hard not to cry at all.

I bought my bag. It’s not my favourite LV, Gucci, Burberry or Fendi. They are just far far too much away from my budget. No discounts for such bags and the amount for them is equivalent to a good overseas trip already. Anyway, for once, I bought something which is consider “ex” enough to myself and it is a “love at first sight”. It’s rather simple and not really unique. But, I loved it for now and I take pains trying hard not to dirty it as it is a mix of gold and white. Hehe. As for my dream label bag, I gotta buy it the next time round. No more bags or clothes. I bought enough! Just a week, my shopping spree is already 700 bucks. Ouch!

After a big-hu-ha of changing the dinner appointment with one of my manager here, the dinner appointment settled on Thursday. And, the Star Lady of the night could not make it due to her preparations for her trip. For a moment, I thought that it would be cancelled. However, the dinner was still on and with my idol going as well. Yes, my idol. The one who is always making me blush; for whatever reasons which I, myself cannot comprehend. Actually he’s not the only one but the most times. LOL. In fact, I was rather nervous over the dinner thingy as I am worried that he would see me blush once again. But, as I have promised I would turn up, even without the Star Lady I continued with the dinner. And, there were many times that we were just by ourselves. The manager left both of us to catch the cabbie together to the place as he needs to go back home for his luggage. I could feel my heartbeat jumped more quickly than normal. Haa. Afterall, he’s my crush. We could chat and dinner was served with good food, sake and of course beer. Dinner ended around 9 plus and the managers left together leaving me and him once again. Well, he was nice enough to offer to walk me to the MRT. We were at Cuppage Plaza and I told him that I want to take the MRT from Orchard. In fact, Somerset was closer…. Haha … Well, he stayed around taka area but we ended walking until Tangs underpass. I know he knew about my likings for him. I know. I cannot understand why I can be so obsessed with him. Crush with no reason. We would not end up together and it’s silly to be so obsessed. It’s stupid too. Argh … I am hopeless…

JuZ LikEs 2 CoMpLaiN

Thats Me .. my new hairstyle ... Nicest pic of all. e rest is to be hidden. LOL

I haVe a Lot of complainS!!! LOL

Complain 1:
these days, i find it extremely difficult to wake up. My official office hours is 8.30am, well and i dun step in until la~ la~ la~ . Well, sleep has becoming so essential cuz i always feel a lack of sleep these days. Well, alot of suppers w my family these days .. my dad too preoccupied w his work until late, and it can be as late at 11. AND .. AN empty stomach till that time .. Well, I love to complain that i am tired and be a driver to send them back as my dad drinks. Well, though i know my dad is stressful and troubled by many problems thus drinking relieves stress (perhaps?) I wanna be filial but i still complain ... hee ... just Hope my Dad will be free of his problems real soon ... I wish i will be of help but he always say i have a mind of 13yr old as i simply whine and talk rubbish too much ... haha .. well, that's me mah ... life's just too cruel ...

On a gd note, there was one day when i was still deeply in zzz until 7.30am. I was awaken by a sms at 7.30am. It was from Xin. Guess wat. It was " Happy Belated Bdae"LOL .. wonder whether it was really belated wishes or just wrong person on his mind ... LOL

Complain 2:
Recently, i got cravings for fried chicken at this famous fast food outlet. This craving is rather rare cuz i do not really like to eat chicken w bones. =p And i was really lookin forward to eating that w White Angel. And my marginal utility was spoilt due to a Eng-Speakin ChXXna. Her eng suXxs. We ordered a meal and asked for a change of chix as my friend do not like to eat drumstick. Guess what she says .... "Cannot. You must eat according to the advert pic" WTF. I am not exchanging for something else lor. And this is e 1st time i hear such rules that you can only eat according to the poster. I mean if e poster is chix burger, it is reasonable that you cant exchange for fish. BUT, drumstick for other parts of chix not allowed! NONSENSE. I went back complainin stil land keep peepin @ others to see if all of them have drumstix on their serving. As she gave not enuff spoon, i went back counter and ask for a spoon and asked another server is it true that i need to eat accordingly. and i was RIGHT. Stupid fool. Lazy bum. Lots of them. their attitude simply turns me off. ARGH.

Complain 3.
I had a new haircut. I have chopped off inches of my long hair. Still considering shoulder length with new perms and new colour, but i do not really like it. if i am lazy enuff not to style my hair, i doubt i dare to step outside. haa! not only that, this new look makes me more mature! (coming from my idol) well .. yucks... it's more ladylike in a way but XXX. It's ex and i thinkin of cutting it real short or go for rebonding. argh... wat shld i do??!?!?!?!

Complain 4
E purpose of wedding dinner. Red Packets (sharing burden?!?)? Sharing happiness (Notifyin u R hitched ? ) ? Celebration ( Meeting up for follows up 4 e next Weddg dinner?) haa! Well, having a dinner is good when you celebrate w ur close ones (family) , friends. I mean exclude friends of ur parents. the tradition is bound to invite those uncles and aunties that you long forgotten but whom are ur parents buddies and friends. But .. wat abt ur own ? pple these days just like to invite for the sake of inviting. thats wat i think. People whom i seldom see or talk . Not even sms or even msn or email. one day ... hey i getting married, you are invited .. wats that ? i mean everyone has his or her committments but when keeping in touch means once in many yrs ... is that Keepin in touch? well, perhaps different pple different perspectives. well ... i just like to complain....

thats all for now ... i have enough of my complains .... haha ....

26th August 2008

Today’s the 26th … haa… 26th … my bdae falls on the 26th too…

26th August is a day which I remembered...for now?
I had my convocation on this day 3 years ago …
And, this date marks my start w Xin 6 years ago ….
Time flies…

Well, not that I still haven got over him… it just occurred to me that 6yrs ago was a agreed start with him. I still rem e start … haha .. well somethings in life … just seems so difficult to forget … Dun worry my friends, I am not waiting for him anymore (am I ? ).

24th August 2002, we were chatting as usual. I am gonna try to recollect my story. Haa! We were already quite close then. We almost talked everyday on the phone and went out rather often. And … unspoken commitment that we would inform each other of our whereabouts … but we were just friends then. Then that night, he was asking if we can be or are we a couple. I still rem that I ask him to give me a week to consider. I just came out of a r/s few mths back then and I do not know if I am ready for e next one. However, the next day, I already knew my decision. Whether is it a week or mth or even a day, I knew I would want to be with him.

I guess I believe in a lot of “gan jue” then. We had enuff chemistry to make me think that he won’t be just a friend. A possibility to be more than friend. Well … I neva believe that I would be w someone whom I know for yrs. If I would have like a person, I guess I dun need yrs to make me realize that he’s e one that I would consider to be in a relationship with. My instincts … my stupid and not logic instincts… haha ..

Anyway, we were still chatting on the 25th. As the clock strikes 12 or … when it was 26th, I told him my decision. Well … I chose the date for convenience sake … cuz … 26th’s the day of my bdae too… Easier for him to rem since he’s quite a forgetful guy. Oh well…

Anyway, it’s 26th August …. But … 2008 now … 6yrs have gone. I have been through a lot of ups and downs. Though in between there’s still Mr Hellboy, he’s still e one that I think I fell for too deeply. I wondered why… Am I Silly or not? I do not know … I only know that, for him, I am willing to do a lot of things, and trust him for things that I should not. Even a lie comes from him, I choose to believe him. Only God can understand why? But I am not that perfect lah … I may have done a lot for him but I have also make him sad? Well … that’s PAST … Mr Xin and Me …

August ... Me ... dramatic again ..

Wohoo .. it has been a long time since I wrote my blog. I have been Too busy at work, staying late as my team is leaving offshore. They will be leaving for a period of about 2 months and this time round my open Idol will be here first with another engineer. They will be only going in the next phase. Does this sounds good news to me? This sounds dangerous though. Haha .. Anyway, since it has been about a month since I last blogged, I have so much to tell! As I do not wanna forget each memorable incident, I decide to blog them according to incidents. Hehe

Month of August has been an exciting month for me. A lot of ups and downs in this month; a lot of happiness and sadness. It is true! Well, nevertheless, this is all part of life. An exciting life is of course, more interesting than a boring mundane life! Hehe

My August activities includes as below:
1. Backstabbing by anymomous “trusted one” .. this is pretty exciting, drama like .. Well, but thanks to this Anymomous person, I decided to stay with my current company still … hehe
2. just both of us alone dinner with my jap engineer at Hotel Royal … Sounds juicy? Lol .. Just a night of dinner that’s all. I swore.
3. My Project Dinner, followed by drinking session and ktv … with my japs, sometimes I wonder if they have double personality. They are so different during work and after work. But, with this gatherings, I really felt lucky to be working with them and being taken care of.
4. Dinner at Gyu-Kaku .. a last minute arrangement, with my J* colleague and a manager who I deemed to like her.
5. Dinner with my pals at Raffles City with a touching move from them. Well, afterall conflicts here and there, hidden hates and likes, friends who know you for long simply just know you inside out and there for you even though you dun say it so.
6. Japanese courses for September … I decide to continue my Jap course which I learnt 7 yrs ago. Yes, 7 yrs ago. I have clearly forgotten the basics and I think I still like Jap. Judging from my likes with Takeshi Kaneshiro, I think I wanna continue my Jap all the way thru while working here and then move on. Cool,
7. Meet up with my dearie, after her training. And … she’s off for flying again. Though I know her for only 5 yrs, I really like her as my friend. Even though I may not have know her deep enough, but we just clicked. Our similarities, our rubbish, our craziness, our love for the one we love. Just too alike. But I am wilder. Haa
8. Dinner @ Raffles City again, followed a healthy session @ Ocha but followed drinking at Clarke Quay. And meeting up a 5-digit guy. He’s … not very impressive at our first meetup though… ahya … Missing my Friday nights again.

Things have been happening so much to me. And I haven been meeting my friends. Time is nto enough. I have not been talking or even meeting Winz, my angels, E* which I promise I Would, Cri*, She*. And next week is already Sept.! Work probably will not be as busy as before, but September is full of activities again. Jac* bdae is coming and we already planned to have dinner at Minori, then K* dearie’s bdae is coming too. Her schedule is not fixed yet but we gonna have a good session as well. Plus, a Used-to-be Close brother’s wedding dinner in September. A visit to my colleague’s house as she gave birth to a 2.88kg girl on 18th august 2008 at 8pm.( so many 8’s!) And, if my lessons commerce, it will be in September too. Plus, someone’s birthday in September. I do not know if I would celebrate with him. This is a tough nut to crack. I do not know if I should. Well, nevertheless, it’s gonna be another busy busy time for me. Plus plus Plus!!! My swimming sessions with White Angel and jogging with my newly bought Mizuno’s shoes, so far only ran once with it!! Haha

I gonna pen off for now cuz I am going out … as for the details of each activities … when I come back ba … lol

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As if ...

been stalking and finding evidences of hellBoy cheating on me for long .. Till date, sadly to say that he's a good actor cum leaves no clues at all for me to track ... lol

and .. "be nice to me and I will be 10 times nicer to you" AS IF.. self proclaming that you are nice is just not enough. Coverin up for your hidden secrets by monetary stuffs is not acceptable. you sure do not know that...

just a note for you man, ur best friend is not that best afterall. he's a stalker as well, haunting me on msn. yes .. i knew it already... so wat ya a LCF student ... that doesnt give you a right to act, to hurt or to stalk a person.

whatever it is ... it's you who make me realise that Hidden Secrets can be scary ...

Wedding, Drinkin & Farewell PLUS WORK

my Miss Power English aka Miss Nano aka Lucy Liu from Charlies Angels .. =p
Congrats, my friend!

we were very sober .. not really drunk .. but dun know wat happen .. aniwae, Kawa* & M* has won the best pic taking award .. censored not shown here .. LOL .. i was the first to experiment the J* style pic taking .. and Kiri* long awaiting moment... or m*'s one as well?

The yummy food .. Kissing again ? looks like i have too much kisses here and there .. haha ..
thats e girl who left ..
All the best to you, my friend!

been pretty busy for the past 2 weeks, as what my title says .. I am occupied with these activities.. Not only burning holes in my pockets, at the same time draining my energy. It's true .. yeah .. i know .. i am getting older. haa!

First, it's Nano's wedding .. 19th July,at British Club. A super duper Ulu place near Bukit Timah. And i was falling sick then, caught stomach flu then. But .. it's Nano's wedding! Well, i slept the whole of Friday in order to build up my health for tis Extraordinary Wedding ok! Indeed, Nano has been busy for the past half year preparing and can see that she wants it out of the ordinary style of marriage. A beautiful bride, suave & charming bridegroom .. let the love endure beyond the last sunset! There were quite a number of ang mohs guest invited .. and i guess i can't married an ang moh .. cuz i have difficulty hearing them! LOL .. it's true! and .. the gfs and wives are usually very attractive .. that leaves me out again .. oh well ... neverthless,i am happy for my nano .. there's still another single nano .. sob sob .. Still one Angel from Charlie's angel not married .. LOL

Then, come a busy week of work. And following friday, a dinner session with Winz and Sheila. I have not see Sheila for very long and she really changed quite abit. I guess, as one ages ... what you want and desires just becomes clearer. And, the reality of been selfish in relationship is becoming clearer? well, the meetup just make me had such conclusions ... After dinner at Waraku, we head to Robertson Quay to meet my Japs. Wine drinkin session with Kawa*, Kiri* & M*! We planned to go Attica intially, as J* has not turned up. We decide to *speed date* first. LOL.. It was a very funny session and like many others including myself, W* thinks that most of the j*s are perverts. LOL .. but somehow, Mine are safe. I reassured her many times. BUT .. i wonder what went wrong that day ... we started to have the J* style takin photo session. A indicative of friendship .. 0 inches away .. kissing on the cheek! my goodness, for many dinner and drinkin sessions with them, this is the first time, we got so wild before. and i guess each of us really enjoyed each moments ..*winks*

just kinda disappointed that my idol is of a different click from them .. but i guess, if he was the same .. i ... i ... well well ... but i missed that time we went out .. with him beside me, his closeness .. haa .. my obession for a guy seems pretty serious this time .. LOL .. well, for my current life, i am quite satisfied now .. no strings attached yet letting my emotions go crazy .. LOL ...

then come monday ... a farewell for one of my colleague here .. we took quite a bit of crazy pics in the office and farewell dinner at Waraku again .. She's off to her new workplace and hereby i wish her all the best .. She's sad that she has to leave here becuz of the nice colleagues .. well .. understandable ... but i guess there will be a day where one has to go for better prospects ... Girl .. learn it man ...

as for me ... i have got a 3rd round of interview coming up .. the last time .. meeting up with the MD of the company .. i guess the chances of gettin the position is rather high now .. but ... i am getting emotional ... i felt sad when i knew that i have to go for my 3rd interview ... surprising lright ? i was lookin very forward to moving to a new envt with gd prospects ... but .. i felt sad... well .. the workin envt is not that bad actually .. not much pressure at work, shops arounds, plenty of food around, easily accessible 4d, nice & fun colleagues plus my jap colleagues .. i grew to be in love with tis more now. haiz. .. and it saddens me ... oh well ... i guess. ... go the interview first and see how it goes. ... god ... just let everything turns out fine ...