Me ... with 五月天 ... 回到地球表面 ... on my Birthday!!!

I am excited .. My birthday this year’s gonna be so so so different. I am going to give my virginity off … on my birthday!!! Haha … to Mayday!!! I am gonna watch that concert on my birthday itself … my god!!!

After a good lunch meal with my beloved family, a very full meal of Dim Sums and all. I am ready for my dinner session with my ex-boss … He treated me to a good Aussie meal at this NUS club at Suntec… He even offer to give me, Winz and Cui to Indoors stadium. But, I guess he lost his way because we only reach Indoors Stadium at 8 after we left Suntec at 7.30… hoho .. I dun wanna elaborate on that. But lucky, we got in time for my Mayday!!!

It was a very good concert as everyone was super high. I just couldn’t stop myself from jumping and screaming. And it’s this night that I really forget myself, my sorrows, everything and just enjoy the concert! Ashin just melts my heart I look at him… his voice, his songs … just moved me to the core … and there was this part that I almost cried …. Mayday! You guys did a good job. And my tix was really worthwhile. I would there again next year!!!

Perhaps, SG girls were too decent? When Ashin was close, they dun even dare to hold him, if I was around …. Haha … I can’t imagine wat I would do … LOL…I was also mesmerized by Monster .. But I guess, Ashin really melted me with his voice … hoho …

The concert with not much special gimmicks or too much fantasy costumes…A simple T-shirt with jeans … Mayday … you guys … is a big success … I am gonna be a big big fan of yours … from now and ever … hoho …..

7 surprises .. Lucky 7 … lucky me …

My birthday this year fell on a Saturday this year. As usual, usually I planned my birthday celebrations with different groups of friends on different days. This year was also kinda surprising for me and I received plenty of surprises on Friday itself. I was touched … a loss of words… I felt so much in love … haha …

I was in fact feeling quite upset in the morning because the HR disappointed me with their feedback on the pay increment stuffs. And it really pissed me off. I was really moody and started to curse and swear when I complained to my colleagues. Then, suddenly, my colleague was shouting for me that someone was looking for me. And I just blurted, “fXXX, I’m busy!” my colleague was stunned at my mood, lucky he didn’t hear me … I went to the door and saw my 1st surprise. A bouquet of 12 stalks of Gerberas from the 3 babes, Eileen, Helene & Winz! I was surprised and I love the words on the card. “Did you think we would forget to give you flowers?!” haha … Well, I didn’t expect flowers really because we celebrated on Tuesday already. But I love the flowers. Really, looking at them now … it’s such a waste that they withered off so fast … what a waste … I was still in a daze at my chair looking at the flowers when a call came in. “Jaz, you have someone looking for you again!” haha … this time round … a Chocolate cake from my secondary school buddies! Haha … they sort of discussed that everything will be delivered to me on Friday. =)

I was already very touched when these 2 surprises came in. but that’s not all. My colleague gave me a big Yoshi as another surprise. Goodness… then another Jap colleague came and gave me my fav Subway peanut butter cookie too! That’s a total of 4 surprises already. I really can’t work that day… Just then, one of my managers walk past my cubicle and saw the flowers and gift, “is that for your birthday?” I nodded. And that triggers the next surprise. He got a cake for me and ask the khakis around for a mini cake celebration and playful Mus took a handful of whipped cream and rubbed on my nose. Haha … I was already too delighted then….

I went back to my place and start to crack my brain how to bring my stuffs back … then … the 6th surprise came in … it was already close to 5pm when the surprise came… Fang Mei sent another a rabbit with flowers over to me!!! Another one … She really kept her surprise well … She ask me about my msn message as I showed the number of surprises for my nick. And she added to my surprise count for that day. Can you imagine how touched I was that day?

Looking at the surprises on my table, I was really at a loss of words. I decide to bring back all. I loved them all and couldn’t bear to leave anyone in the office. So in the end, I brought home everything in the taxi. Last, but not least, my youngest sis also gave me a mini surprise. She bought me a small air refresher out of her pocket money. That totals up my 7 surprises for the day.

Gosh .. How lucky I am! I love everything … I love you all for all the efforts and surprise …. Thanks once again!

Bunny & Flower Cheeky Mus Flowers from e 3 Babes Yoshi from Joanne
from Fang Mei

from my cute Sis My bed Family Chocolate cake from Jacq & Clara


My NSEC khakis!!!!

Birthday Session with Ah Kav

It was kind of a reunion day for me yesterday … I met a lot of old friends … mostly are from my ex-colleagues … I took a half day leave to collect my phone before meeting Kav. As there was still time, I decided to go back to Kinergy to see the people I missed. I also arranged a coffee session with my ex-boss. I am very grateful to what he did for me when I was there. Well, back then, I was rather unhappy with him when I decided to throw in my resignation letter; but he did give me a lot of opportunity then. =)

Well… I met up a lot of old colleagues plus my dear .. haha … then after I went town to meet Kav. We decided on Ramen at Far East Plaza .. FXXX.. the Ramen was so spicy … and in fact too spicy…it got me all red in my face and lips .. That’s my birthday dinner … spicy dinner …And we moved to Tangs and met one of our own “colleague”, Jill. We started chatting of times when we were at Robinsons, cosmetic counter then… Time has really flies … It was 6 years ago when I was still working there! Make me sound so old! And I have know Kav for that long … Well, but I am glad that we are still good friends. =)

We ended at Balcony, Hereen after the short meet-up with Jill. And started taking pictures at the very ambience place plus our nice magaritas … and that’s not all … We move to Alley bar after our drinks at Balcony … And Kav gave me another surprise…a Chocolate cake from Spinelli! Haha .. Another chocolate cake… =p but it’s nice as well … perhaps I should learn to appreciate chocolate cake … It was indeed a surprise … I really appreciate her efforts … and I am glad to see her looking very vibrant … It has been a tough time for her, but I know she will be able to go through this. Well, hurt can make one grow stronger. And I can see that. =)

This is another birthday session with so many pictures taken … I becoming more and more like a camera freak … have I ?

Birthday Surprise from my 3 Babes

Surprise, surprise and surprise … It’s kinda difficult to make one feel surprise when we repeat our surprise activities .. LOL .. Well, this year the 3 babes, namely ME – Jaz, Eileen and Helene planned a surprise birthday party for another babe – Winnie. She was indeed very surprised at the whole thing and perhaps abit touched? And, this April, the 3 babes decided to give me a surprise. However, it seems so not easy to still keep me in suspense because they did the same thing as what we did for Winnie … LOL … OK…OK… I was surprised when the cute waiter brought in the cake… :P I met Winz first and the 2 other babes rushed over first to Giraffe (the dinner destination) preparing for my arrival. As usual, abit of photo taking and the dishes came and we had our dinner. Lucky the food was in small portions but I think not really worth. It is a nice place with ambience and all but probably it fits better as a chill out place rather than a eating place. After a just enough dinner, suddenly a cute waiter came in with a cake with so many candles to my table and passed me my cake. He was cheeky and sang a nice birthday song. But he’s cute… LOL … Indeed, I should be surprised, but … perhaps I was abit overly sensitive cuz I see Helene and Winz fidgeting … I was expecting something coming… haha …. And they were so disappointed when I say I dun like chocolate cake… :P well … I dun have a preference for cakes … but as I am not someone is a sweet tooth, I dun really like chocolate cakes as most of them are rather too sweet. But the “Hello Kitty” cake was nice, and I am kinda sad that I forgotten to bring it back after our craziness at Ice Cold Beer… And … the craziness’s gonna begin … We ended up at Ice Cold Beer and 3 babes especially Helene was so excited in getting a hunk to take picture with me … and we seems to be like “desperados” haha … and the bitches around us perhaps were gossiping “childish sluts .. getting so much attention” … LOL … but we simply dun care … we just keep taking pictures the moment we got in and they manage to find a hunk that I have accepted … haa .. Marco, an Australian who happen to be in Singapore via transit flight but be flying the following morning … well, no contacts were exchanged so after the end of the picture-taking, marks the end of the story … haha Indeed, it was a great time we having .. cuz we took a lot of pictures doing free advertisements for watches, beers and all … plus Lesbian acts and seducing poses and all .. seriously … I didn’t know we can be that wild … LOL … We have fun … and I really enjoy this surprise … Love you all … Love the birthday gift … Love the cake as well …. And the next meet up …. Helene’s birthday … will there be another surprise? Haha

April --- FesTive SeaSon

April. A month full of activities for me… =) Having fun, enjoyment with my friends, family … I love this kind of happy feelings... Hope I can be always as happy ... I’ve been unhappy for quite a couple of times in the past … Experiencing problems in school, friends, relationships, work… Through all these hurt, falling down, picking myself up, I really should live my life in a happy mode. It’s simply too short for me to waste for regrets to come.

Well, my birthday is coming and this year seems exciting for me. I will be going to watch Mayday Concert on my birthday. Well, it’s gonna be my virginity concert and I giving to 5 men… LOL… Before the concert, I will be probably meeting Fang Fang! It has been quite awhile since I last talk or even met with her. We contacted via msn and email only, and I feel that it’s not enough… But I guess, this happens when everyone of us grows up…Each of us has his or her own commitments and time seems never enough … Oh well… But I am glad to be able to arrange to see her on my Birthday! Actually, it’s just another birthday and I dun have to make it a big thing but I am enjoying it …. Every happy moments with my closed ones….

Yeah!! It’s my Birthday … and I love all those who love me, for who I am for what I do and who are with me here … =)

oh yes.. i was sorta of disppointed a few days back because my phone was spoil ... damn the XXXX service Centre ... waited and waited .. but .. my phone's back .. and i am glad the data's still inside ... hehe =)

GreaT day 4 the AnGeLs

I really enjoyed myself last Saturday, though it really burnt a hole in my pocket. hehe =)

It was a sort of early birthday celebration for me and my blue angel. Activities were planned, and really fruitful. Early in the morning, we were at Bugis street, praying at the Guangying temple. It has been awhile since i last went for prayers. And .. it started raining...and very heavy rain .. our next destination was Sentosa!! Rain rain .. please go away .. and indeed, when we reach Harbourfront MRT, it has stopped raining. In fact, the weather was good for a short tour around Sentosa before our next destination. Our "Islander" came to fetch us with his "Islander Bus" and became our tour guide. Brought us around and took the Carlsberg town cable, one gd thing with our "islander" .. we were given discounts or even free entrance to certain places on Sentosa. =)

Look .. Inside Carlsberg Town Cable ..
Nice Beach view .. did you see MerLion? hehe

Look ... Answering a handphone call when up in the skyride .. haa .. Cool eh? Aniwae, it's a call from from Yoga place, which wanted to give me free usage...all scams .. haa

Cool Glasses?

these are glasses for watching at the 4D theatre. It was quite interesting and really gives us the effects with all those wind blowing against our hair, water on us and shaky chairs ... haha ...

We left Sentosa about 4. Our next destination appointment was 5pm. It was a trio massage session =) a great experience and really relaxed session. I felt rather strange in the beginning cuz it has been a long while since i last went for massage. Totally naked and massage plus scrub ... i wonder whether did the lady vomit after seeing such an unsightly body of mine .. The massage was overall ok.. i still feel abit pain today.. so it's gd ?.. aniwae. i took the massage at Anjana's, Upper Cross Street. Rather cheap..so you guys may wanna try? (Check out more on my another blog) you can't compare with those expensive one. Value for money mah ... and ... this is not all ... we still have another 2 destinations to go .. hoho ...

exciting right .... next .. Singapore Flyer!! 165m high .. and we took the Singapore flyer at 9pm... It was kind of a waste cuz you can't see much at this timing. but it suppose to be romantic isn't? haa ... well ... prob if i have a bf .. but ... half an hour in the capsule with nothing much .. it is pretty boring ... just taking pics and walking around .. haha .. i think the speed was kinda slow ... prob to make my ticket worthwhile ? $29.50 per person for a half an hour journey .. well, once in a lifetime ... haha .. somemore with my angels ... hee ..

Lastly but not least .. our real late dinner ... in fact, we planned to go for Sakae supper buffet. We wanted to go to Changi Airport .. but i guess all of us were rather drained of all the walking, taking pics .. we decide to go to Marina square instead .. But .. there was a long queue .. and alot of couples were still queueing .. guess... thats wat couples do on a sat night?haa ... in the end, we decide to go to Changing Appetites instead... Food was ok .. and we happen to see the Guest officer we met earlier at the massage. She was there with her bf i think for dinner as well.. wat a coincidence. As Blue angel doesn't eat cakes, we order a muffin with candle for me and her .. haa ..

Thats how i spend my sAturday .. it drained both my money and energy .. but i greatly enjoyed myself other than the quarrel with Mr wee that day ... time was spent happily and fruitful .. I look forward to our next outing whether is it Sentosa or Pasir Ris theme park .. Go go Go!!!

Time is Not enough ..

i was walking around the library one day and realise that there is really so much readings to do. I was not a avid reader when i was in schools. I do read, mostly fashion magazines and some romance novels. but i have not read enough, and now at an age of 27, i am still reading romance novels. I find myself wasting my time away. I should expand my general knowledge instead of induling in some unrealistic love, isn't it ? There is so many things i can read .. Cities, fashion, crafts, self enhancement etc.. gosh .. then i went to a games shop, there are again so many interestings games around ... god .. i have been wasting my years of living.

and inside me, i have decided to sleep less, make more use of the time around. Time is neva enough. I aim to sleep not less than 6 hours a day but still feelin fresh for activities after. cuz i am always feelin tired and sickly. i guess i need to workout as well. Well, looking at myself now, i hope i will be able to achieve some things soon.

I guess the problem with me is, talk no action. So hereby i decide to write down my goals? and hopefully, i be able to achieve them. Friends .. remind me and motivate me ok? hehe =)

Goals in life
1. Career/Entrepreneur
2. Savings
3. Attain a 3rd language
4. Take up graphic courses
5. Maintain a good health and body
6. Travel

The above are general goals which I have always wanted. Then again, it's like talk air again. So i will amend abit from my goals. hee =)
1. I have until Sep to search for a new career, if not i will stay put till Sept. Then i will think until end of the year whether do i want to take over my dad's related business. (target: establish fixed career goal )
2. Set aside $400 every month. Actually, I should save $600 a month but know my spending habits, i keep it to $400 first, once if i have the habit of saving, i shall increase. Start fix saving in June. I want to pay off all my incur debts and installments first. 2 months to settle everything. Jiayou!
3. I have always been interested in Japanese. Thus, I hope i can start within this yr prob June as well.
4. Graphic course. It's always my interest and love for creative stuffs. However, looking at myself, i guess this have to be shelved. Prob 3-5 yrs time. Target 2010. LOL
5. I will be consuming my uncle's recommended multi-vitamins. Secondly, I hope to maintain a gd workout schedule, such as swimming once a week and jogging 3 times a week. For now, I wanna fix a jogging session once a week starting May. Then 2 times a week in June. Please . I need motivation. LOL
6. Travel. If i successfully be able to save, I hope i can travel this yr. Especially in June or July period. I hope to be able to travel overseas at least once every 2 years. For a start, I hope i can go taiwan. I need money to go. Probably 2k. haha . from now to end of the yr is 8 mths. If i able to save $600 a month, I will go in Dec. I hope so!

Well, looking at this.. I guess i need to be very determined. Probably even to print this out to remind me...haha .. Friends ... Family .. Wish me luck!

One YeaR AnniVerSaRy

time flies .. and indeed ... it's one year for me ... one year here for me ... well, today's my one year with my current japanese company... gosh ...

i came in with my heart that i was cheated by my agent who brought me in .. and i really couldn't stand the environment here ... and the workload ... it was very quiet to me and i am really not used to it ... no music!! how can i work without music .. but actually, in fact alot of companies do not allow music, so it's not just this company. Next it's the work.. i got no satisfaction, no goal and no responsibility and it really bores me alot ... i like to be busy and i always think i am a workholic and i am ambitious? .... and .. after a three months bond here, i really look for quite a number of jobs but all neva come too well for me..and afterawhile, i stop because i would want to get the "attractive" bonus ... and ... all these ... i been here for a year ... lol

Looking right at my table now, you can see from the picture.. i am rather comfy with my current working environment and also a sentimental person? alot of nice toys and alot of sentimental stuffs from my closed ones are put all around ... and that is my current workplace .. it is .. no kidding ....

hmm....however, i am still on the lookout for a job that i desires .. actually, i do not know wat i really want .. but ... i hope to get something similar as my first job ... would i ? or start my own biz ? i like the second idea more....

Bless me ..

SiCkLy Me ..

been to the doc .. finish the medicine, but still ... since sat, been sneezing away .. and i was predicting the sickness sydrome .. thus i kept gulping water and took panadol ... but .. it didn't help .. and i was down with cold ( doc diagnose) ... i had a bad throat, suffered throat infection and it was so bad that i feel pain in my ear and head .... this is so bad ... so bad till i really seems to drag myself in doing anything .. had 2 days rest at home which seems not enough ... and back to work, i have full access to internet and start blogging again .. nothing special has happen to me ... no entertainment also ... pretty boring .. but i looking forward to next week! a spa session with my 2 two angels ... plus ... April 26th .. cuz i am watching Mayday concert with my 2 buddies again! hehe ... that makes me smile .. at least ...

BlooDy Morning

it's a bloody morning for me .. kinda bad start for the day ...

early in the morning, i bathed .. and stupidly ... i cut my left thumb ... you know wat .. i cut my thumb because i tried to squeeze the last bits of conditioner out from the stupid tube ... and .. it ACTUALLY cut my thumb ... a one cm cut on my left thumb just keep bleeding ...

and .. this is not the end ... cuz .. after ... i brushed my teeth ... perhaps .. i was still sleepy then ... i brushed too hard and my gums started bleeding ... argh ...

and now ... in my office ... within minutes of reaching the office, i cut my right knee as i knock my knee against the hard surface of my desk ....

this is just a bloody morning for me .. and i just can't resist not blogging over this bloody scene ....

CrossRoads~~Always~~

I had a long weekend last week .. Wasn't at home since last Wed .. But i did not apply any leave, i was on urgent leave again! well..my dad landed in hospital. He had a fall and it actually hurt his own injury. He had diffculty in walking and I was in hospital till quite late on Tues night. Haiz .. and we were at the Emergency section ok? 6-7 hours of waiting which is termed as Emergency treatment.. argh .. Thank goodness, it was not that serious but he need to go back doc for review first week of April. He refused to take operation or been hospitalised, guess he's worried abt his work.. And..somehow .. i know my dad's getting on his years but somehow, tis incident just triggered me to rethink about my future again ...

Shld I help w his biz? hmm...i not engineering inclinced..but seriously if i wanted to take on tis, tis is not a necessity cuz i would do up w oher sects of biz .. but shld i ? I know i shld help my dad, i shld relieve his burden but .. many concerns .. Our different views .. my stubborness and my dumbness .. plus engaging my sis or my cousins to help tis .. Is this a gd idea? i guess .. i need to think .. realli think .. my dad's biz no big biz like company but ... dun know how to explain but .. doin biz has always been my dream .. do i have wat it takes to follow in his footsteps? argh ... 27 tis yr .. loss .. crossroads .. now and then ... argh ..

BuSy BuSy BuSy ... BluSh Blush Blush

it has been quite awhile since i last blogged.. as wat my title says, i have been busy ... 24hrs a day, 7 days a week seems not enough for me .. perhaps i have poor time management? but neverthless, i got too many too many committments which i can never understand too ....

to summarise, my time is just been spend on watching movie, doing OT, playing mahjong and all? haha... I have watched the Leap Years think Last Friday with my good friends ... It was good meetup cuz time was spent so usefully .. haa .. before the movie, we went to Minds Cafe to kill time, to settle our meal and to strength my brain by playing Master Mind.. It is a game which i haven been playing for so long, and it really can kill my brain as i feel that i behaving more senile each day .. argh ...

perhaps it's just my work... been busy with my work ... but wat am i doing exactly ? well ... i am a project secretary .. as the title says .. secretary .. bescially, i am a nanny to my engineers ... photocopying documents, tracking of the status, maintaining the register, keep them up to date ... plus occassionally of serving coffee... how active can my brain be .. doing these kind of stuffs... well... been hunting for job .. perhaps i am lazy .. or perhaps, i getting older ... doing such job is actually much soughted by alot of people .. but not me ... well ... cuz my dream is still to have my own biz .. earning a miserable 2k pay .. plus my uncountable spendings on drinks, shopping, gifts etc .. how can i fulfil my dream ... i really dun know ....

oh yes...i learn how to play mahjong ... the japanese style one last thurs ... my engineer ask me to follow them to the japanese association to play...the rules are rather different and the points system etc ... but ... it is rather interesting afterall... and .. my engineers are really treatin me well... they bring me to eat, now play mahjong and they also promise me gifts from Japan ... haiz... they are getting nicer to me each day and the thought of me always wanting to leave is making me in a dilemna ... oh well... but neverthless ... prospects is still inportant ...my 2 good friends are in dilemna too... in choosing jobs ... i was too ... last mth .... guess choosing a right one is important .. and now .. my white angel who just took up a new job is not happy with her job .. i just hope she is happy soon ...

oh well... when can my life be smoother ... i hope soon ... i am tired..

haa...oh yes .. i almost forgotten ... i have been blushing very often nowadays.. and i dun know why ... good blood circulation ? i been blushing fast each day whenever these guys come and talk to me ... lol ... it's really red .. and i am not lying cuz my colleague beside me see it often ... argh .... is it good or bad? lol ...

MoVie MarathoN

looks like my main expenditures for this season is on movies .. been watching quite a couple of movies within these few months and i have planned a few more shows to watch .. and ... the crying season seems to be here too ... cuz the movies can move me to tears... for instant, PS I Love You, a show which i highly recommended, touched my hearts and my tears just flows when i see the letters been mailed to Holly (Hillary Duff) each season.. Gerry (Gerard Butler), the husband loves her to the point that he prepares these touching letters to aid his wife in moving on after his death .. well ... the movie is really a success in making the audience cry with the show.. though some commented e show was rather slow pace and boring.. But neverthless, it's sweet..

Since Dec last yr, I have watched Warlords featuring my All-time idoL --- Takeshi Kaneshiro Anikin Jin Cheng Wu!! Plus the very "man" Andy Lau and Jet Li. Nice war show but rather draggy.. hee .. I have watched the Jumper, half-watch Kungfu Dunk *due to e fact, rush to hospital during e show*, PS I Love you and on Monday Death Note: L change the World (kinda disappointed..it's not as good as wat i hoped). wohoo ... and ... I planned to watch The Leap Years this coming Friday with my best buddies .. My colleague recommended me this show and to bring in extra packets of tissue as this show can move people to tears again ... argh .. Romance .. Romance ... haa ... when's our Sweet and LAsting Romance? =p

So who's going to watch more movies with me and what shows are nice? hehe ..

alcohoLic CrY Baby

it has been quite awhiLe since I spend my Fridays in Singapore. Ever Since my dad bought the house in msia, i have been in and out of msia. So my usual weekends are spent playing Mahjong, eating and Sleeping there. LOL. However, as usual i went back to msia on sat. Played my mahjong bought a "baju kurong" for my friend's wedding. She's a Malay and I have always wanted to ethic clothes so i decide to buy one tis time round and wear it during her wedding or on racial harmony day.. hehe .. I also planned to buy the Indian sari... hehe ..

Neverthless, I quite enjoy my Friday night w my colleagues eating and drinking. Kinda disappointed at e fact that my idol didn't join us. It was a session initiated by e jap engineer which didn't include him.. oh well .. but i still enjoy the food and drinks. the yakitori was very nice and ex .. plus .. becoming an avivd drinker .. sakae, tiger, whisky and red wine ...

then comes sat ... went back msia ... however late sat midnight, had a long chat w mr wee and i was really crying .. stories abt my past and present .. i know that i shld forget abt it and grow w the bad memories, but it's neva easy .. well...if only ....

hereby ... i thanx for mr wee w me .. and thanx to my family and friends around me who have been scolding me and guiding me .. haa ... all of you .. are my part of my life ... and i appreciate it... =)

AcTive BloGger --- the Reason to EscapiSm

been looking for applications to add to my blog such as music, link, tracker etc.. neva i know i can be so free and active in blogging.. oops .. guess, it's one of the many ways that people do to keep themselves or people around them to be aware of wats happening. or like me, a way for escapism?

was on the phone with wee yesterday night and kept crying..the tots of my future partner if there is saddens me .. the fact that i am no good for anyone... haiz .. just cry like an open tap ... argh ...

Back to the Gd Old days..

feeling really sleepy in the morning as usual.. haa.. but today's Kel's bdae. So i sms him wishing him a gd bdae, but it was kinda disappointing when he ret the sms by askin who am i since he lost his mobile. alot of people nowadays been using this excuse or is it not ? i find it qute sad cuz feels like been forgotten.. haa...just me i guess ..

e day just goes on like that as usual, slacking .. Friendster or facebook..but today decide to go back blogging.. it has really been awhile since i last blogged.. looking back, my blog entries were rather sad and seems like it was a kind of me bearing my sorrows or tryin to improve my english..haha For now, i hope my blog would be more interesting and more lively. =) of course plus beautiful memories.

i was chatting w Kel for the second half of the day.. haa .. i have known kel in 2005 and it has been a long time since i see him or even talk to him.. guess all of us are busy but he is still charmin to me..haa.. and i dun know if he knows that. but i realise, i didn't know him that well..but he's a sweet guy and i tink he's e only one after my school days that i started secretly admiring again.haha..oh well .. crushes i guess.. =p and we chatted for quite a bit and i dun even dare to suggest celebratin his bdae w him.. Winz was surprise that i dun dare to ask him out..haha.. in the past, maybe .. now .. i dun know.. no confidence and i look like shit also .. after much chatting, finally i volunteer to celebrate w him..but..he was booked just minutes after.. was it reeallll or just a way or rejectin me .. i dun know .. but neverthless .. he make my heart beat kinda faster when i chatted to him then ... haha .. oh well ..

today ended w him over in my mind .. and god knows when i will meet e right guy .. oh well ... good things are worth waiting .. haha .. to all those like me who are not attached .. we will meet the right one ... and we would live happily ever after .. =)

PS: PS I Love You is a very touching, sweet show.. Romance with comedy..check it out ...

ReBoRn?!?

it's has been so long since i started blogging in my tis historical place...haha..

well, since it's historical, i shouldn't bring our issues up with unhappy memories or watsoever. I am leading a better life now. *i hope* hoping not to be as dramatic as it used to be.. =)

but .. it is good to learn from the past also .. one can learn to be stronger eh ? =)

Wish Me Luck .. My Family, My Friends .. those who loves me for who i am ..

TiRed~~

Hi people..It has been a very long time since the last time i wrote my blog. Well, it may be my last time continuing to do this thingy. I may stop...who knows. I am quite tired of myself. I have really lost control in myself. My heart has overule my mind at times.. Seriously, I know I am such a person...Well ... Cuz Heart is Blind..they are hidden in the bodies... Neva expose to the real world?

Haiz... I am tired liao... Really ... At work , facing friends , facing colleagues , facing family or even facing the person that is always on my mind; i am tired of not being able to be myself ... I know i am very emotionally unstable ... well ... i am a sore loser in relationship ... what to do ...

GettiNg Older

gosh....i am getting older...this year birthday really different from last year..a few of my friends made their efforts to celebrate with me. i am really touched...i thought this year would be sad like last year..but i neva expect this year to be differenr...plus my colleagues..they really make me so happy . :)

one of the things that i am really happy was e watch i received from my parents...they bought me the watch that i was eyeing for 4 yrs... i was so happy that i cried... well...i was trying to save up to buy it but they bought it..so of course...i am extremely happy...well...parents after all :)

my birthday celebrations spread over 2 weeks... haha...because my friends usually dunno each other, i have to spread my time with them..and becuz of this, i feel that i am so popular..haha...no la...not popular..cuz my skin rather thick...i want people to celebrate with me.. well...actually i dun really like to celebrate birthdays..just an indication of getting older and a signal taht i am facing more troubles as i get older...

haiz~~getting older...xin....you owe me a present..not one bt two...

my wishes..simple...just wanna my whole family to be free from problems...and...i can really be in my fairytale..to be with the one i really love...would it be you, xin? haa.... i dunno...actually i dunno if i wanna be with you....i am totally lost.....

the LighT of my Life?

hi everyone..it has been really awhile since e last time i write up by blog.it has been busy for me. tied up at work.getting older by the second and becoming tired easily by the minute.wats happening?

i am lost. lost in my own world. seriously. i am behaving more zombie-like by the day. i quite enjoy my work cuz my job is flexible. the nature of my job is an area which is totally unfamiliar to me, but i am quite glad that i do learn new things everyday. i am glad i have good company at work though there are alot of gossipers, backstabbers, or even nonsensical people. well,its inevitable, these minority of people exists in almost every work place. well, these people better not offend me though :P

well....i am feeling really restless every single day. wats happening? perhaps....my waiting game has been too long til i am behaving like that? have i lost the interest in the waiting game? or ... i am finally going to face music ? i dunno...can anione please brighten up my life? gosh.....

LoVe is ....

LoVe is sweet, yet bitter at times. Period of sweet and bitterness depends on individuals...

Everyone loves the sweetness right?

But do everyone love his or her partner? or they simply looking for company in life?

After being single for quite a period, plus making mistakes here and there. Hearing and looking at happy and unhappy relationships here and there, i do feel i dun need love. I love to be adored by alot of people. This kinda love dun have to come from bf, they can come from anione. So i guess...probably, i dun need ani bf. I just wanna have fun and being "teng" by the many people around me.

Feelings of confusion again...Thats me...Troubled always...

SicKly DivA

i am sick...seriously sick...must be the swim..cuz i swam in the rain..oh well, plus past few days of not enuff sleep, my body cannot take it and broke down..haha..oh well...must really drink lots of water..

went to my friend's wedding on sat..oh well..another friend getting married..cool...congrats...

just wonder when it will be mine?
well....really no hope in getting married cuz i think xin and me not meant to be together. well, we are meant to go thru tough paths but in the end, i guess we both know that our lives are meant to cross only...the end of the road is not the same. right?

perhaps...well...i won't give up...unless, the kind of love has died in me...

Horoscope Day~~~

Taurus is an earth sign ruled by Venus. Taurus represents art, beauty in all its forms, and strength (not only physical). Taureans are realistic, security loving (both on the material and psychological level) and they like routines, also in their love relationship. In order to obtain this kind of security, they use all of their qualities: resistance, quietness, patience and practical intelligence. They seldom lose control, but when they do get angry they can be violent. This is the reason why it is necessary for them to find the right partner. Taureans live and love in a complete manner, they are constant, and never vain.

Oh well....how true this is about me? i dunno..haha.....my xin is a pisces....and this is how they analyses my relationship with pisces people...oh well.....

TAURUS AND PISCES
Pisces may not altogether understand Taurus's materialistic approach to life. But the dependability of Taurus supplies the anchor Pisces needs to keep from drifting away into a private sea of fantasy. Hard-working Taurus sets a good example for lazy Pisces. Also, Taurus's practical, easygoing nature helps Pisces through its frequent changes of mood. In love, Taurus is devoted and Pisces is adoring. Though Pisces can be a little fey for Taurus, they're well suited sexually. Taurus is passionate, Pisces is sensual, and what's wrong with that?

New YeaR

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

Cool, it's the new year season. Everyone's visiting? i have just done my visiting in malaysia, so here i am back in singapore. Well, who wants me to their homes for the new year ? let me know k? haha

looks like the new year has some surprises for me. but yet to know. i actually thought of ending my complicated relationship with xin. cuz waiting game is really a torture. my close friend maybe leaving for hk, i told xin. he told me, it's ok... he'll be able to keep be company when he comes back. What's the meaning of this? haiz~~i think too much. gosh... sometimesi just do...

well, right now..before he does what he promises me, i guess, i better concentrate on earning big bucks for the near future. i need to achieve my dream of owning my shop!!! hee :) wish me luck~~~

oh valentine~~~

hey..it's been very long since i last write my blog....been busy....lazing...haa

aniwae, i met up my gf who came back from aus yesterday. she's in love...oh mine...and i din know until yesterday..hee..so good at hiding...and my colleague called me yesterday night to tell me how she misses her husband cuz her husband is at usa..oh well..long distance relationship is really not easy to maintain...oh well....what abt me? where's my valentine?

hmm...dreamt of xin last night..well, it's almost a yr...oh well...really long neva been in love..haha...do i need it ? i dunno...i thought i am a faithful, loyal, sentimental gal..yes..indeed i am...but i am tired of the waiting game...haiz~~

Cry Baby

yesterday was a horrible day for me... i do not know why...but i just feel very horrible inside...i feeling like ending my life...it is so horrible...well...i am like living for people..leading a life for people...

but what kind of life i want? ... do i know?

maybe it's me...just myself...i am just simply like to give myself too much pressure...hey, ya just a human being ok? ya not saint ok ? dun try to be saint...no one appreciates...sometimes, i always said these to myself..i feel myself doing too much for others...really kinda silly...do i deserve all these? haiz~~ i am really stressed up with life...

i am always so bubbly to others...but..really..i haven been really happy for a long long time...haiz~~
well, nvm....lucky i cried alot last night...really cried so much til my eyes were so swollen..but the crying thing really make me so much better....

Pre-WorkinG Sydrome

well...well...well....i have been working all this while.....since 19......but i dunno why....after i signed the letter of appointment of the full time job...i dun feel like working....kinda sick...and blamed myself for signing....whats up with me?

well, perhaps, all these while, i am working on a part time basis...no stress...not much responsibility...but now, i have to bear responsibility for the job...have to take precaution of my speech...be careful not to divulge company's operations etc....god....must be really careful....well, i do sound serious cuz my job is like a personal assistant to my boss...i am in charge of his almost everything....i will have access to alot of company's stuffs.....hmm....seems to have a lot of responsibility..but pay not very satisfying ley....haha....probably, if the pay was higher, i may not have the pre-working sydrome afterall....well, the HR promise to review my pay after three mths...just hope she do what she say......otherwise, i wonder if i would ever stay long in the company....

hmm...wish me luck ba......i hope i won't be bored in this manufacturing firm...and hope....i have great propects in it.......:)

WhaTs WronG witH me?!?

i saw my nightmare a few days ago....however..i still upset over the acquaintance....i dunno whats wrong with me. i admit this time round, i was more calm than the previous time that i saw him. but...i really can't push him out of my mind. why...i dunno why also...what that has happen is already over. why do i seems so lost.....argh...i hope i won't see him again...yet i wanna see him....confuse...well...women are complicated creatures...i admit i can understand people very well....but i dun understand myself....what do i want ? him? no...i know who i want to be with right now....my complicated xin....but why am i behaving like that...dun tell me i love him...nah....i dun...attractions probably...physical appearance? haa...i dunno....what abt me? where do i stand? no where...he doesn't care abt me at all..so why shld i bother..fuck him...anyway...i am simply too bored...thats why u came into the picture..i know who i want in life..but i wonder if u know who u want...you just love urself too much..

hmm...i dunno what am i writing.....i am loss.....xin.....forgive me....

Start oF 2005~~

for a start of the new 2005, i should be quite happy cuz i met my special someone today. we had a great chat and i hope things will continue to be like this....well...keep my fingers crossed...

but however things are so ironic....i met my nightmare on the roads today also. we walked past each other. i saw him last month and i saw him again. well...singapore is really simply too small. i can't avoid him i guess...well...dunno what to say....

2004 ended with alot of bloodshed....the tsunami killed so many people. if only i know medical stuffs, i would gg and help out. but i am a useless gal who is so afraid of blood...and so blur at times. would make things worse only i guess..so i can only help by donating clothes and money. i really feel so sad for them...i cried while watching the news..especially scenes of the corpses..and when i saw the mums screaming at their dead kids, i could not figure what they were screaming..but from the tone, i know....the words hurt...i just hope everything will be better by the day...
hope nothing like this happens again....the number of deaths is too shocking....

well.....and i....found a full time job..finally....pay is not cfm yet..but the range of the salary is quite standard..so i just hope that the pple and environment will be interesting. i hope my job won't be boring...hee...so bless me kay ?

and sucks....work starts at 8....
early....i wonder how many times i would be late :P
thats all i guess....
take care everyone....
i like everyone....
cheers~~~

2005!! ResolutionS?!?

ho ho ho ...
christmas is over!! 2005 has come~~~
hmm....a new year..so people, got any resolutions?

me....never really think....let me think....
eh..every year also relatively the same ba....but never really keep to my resolutions..eh...no good hor..cuz never really write down mah...ok...i shall write on my blog..hope i can keep them..

1. Do not Smoke...
i am not a regular smoker..but always bad habit..so this year must try to quit..:P
2. Drink LesSer...
well, quite addicted to drinking nowadays..so must cut down...healthy and save costs.. hee
3. Stop bumminG around and be committed to a full time job...
lazy la....still want my part time actually...but can be quite sian at times...so must train to settle down liao..
4. Stop blaminG myselF for past Mistakes ...
well...i can't stop blaming myself for things i have stupidly done. keep lookinG back and can't face reality..hope i be able to face e music..
5. Settle my relationship with Xin...
Ours is a complicated relationship..ups and downs...hope i can settle it this year...it's torturing me...
6. Be Optimistic
i am a happy go lucky person actually. but i am very pessimistic over a lot of things. i think too much and thats why can't be really happy though i dun show it . i hope i can be optimistic and be a happier person than before. then i really cannot remove my crying face from my nick in msn (been there for long liao) :P
7. Pay off my debts..
get out of my poverty cycle this year and get richer by the day!!! my dream!i can do it!! :P
8. Spend more time with my family.
i admit i really dun spend enough time with my family. i will try to make more time with them
9. Spend more time with my school pals especially jc friends.
haven see them for very long....
10. Lose weight
every year, my resolution will include this..haha

well...so much ... alot more..but i dun wanna be so loh soh...
well, still..i wish everyone best of health, happiness and prosperity.
lastly, my deepest sympathy to the victims in the tsunami disaster.

GooDByE 2004~~~

Merry Christmas Everyone~~~

well...when it's time to celebrate christmas means, the year is ending soon... well..mixed feelings....happy that a new year is approaching however, looking back, sometimes i feel that.. "gosh..i wasted another year!" What about you?

this year indeed is a real dramatic year for me. just to sum up...first trip overseas w my schoolmates...fun, memorable but a nightmare too... haha well...ask me abt my fun but not nightmare.....

my dramatic relationship with my xiao xin... til now...i dunno whats the outcome....well, i guess it will drag into another year .... but ...good things are worth waiting and hope something will blossom la~~~

i finally graduated.....after 3 years of studying my biz course....yes...i have graduated..with acceptable results too...great....

well...so much has happen...and i do not wanna loh soh said all...

anyway, year's ending....all the best to everyone and may everyone be happy and get what they want in life ~

LiFe iS FraGiLe~~

hello everyone....
i wanna look for a full time job...ani jobs for me?
haha..wish me luck....

i just got the news of a close friend of mine who is down with illness...i dunno how serious it wan be....but it really sounded serious....life is so fragile.... he has been leading a hectic life all the while when i first know him...busy with school ... working during school times...saving up for future...then went thru ups and downs in relationship...and when he step into society to work, he led a stil lso busy life....and sadly....he was diagnosed with illness two months ago....i am really sad over this fact...life is so fragile....

i will pray hard for him..and i know there would be many people who would pray for him... you will get well soon xiao ge~~hope to hear good news from you soon~~~

sincerly...your xiao mei~~~

TiReD....

hmm...it has been a long time since i last log in...haha...almost forgotten the password.. :P
well...i woke up today...in fact was prepared to meet my date...however,,,disappointed..it was cancelled....haiz~~well....i was so excited yesterday on e fact that i can see him today..oh well...next time then...

i saw my nightmare a few days ago...he's a nightmare to me...he is someone who have taught me alot of things...he taught me to recognise jerks are all around...and he make me realise that my xin is a very nice guy..i used to really hate him then...he was a nightmare...becuz of him..i led a life that i neva led..well...maybe i am just giving myself excuses..well...but neverthless, he's a impact...oh well...as for now..i dun really hate him...it takes two to clap..i guess, i am responsible for my own actions too...i am not sensible at times...and really too kiddish at times...and naive...plus dumb...well...thats me...a gal who is simple by nature..who neva think too deeply into things..yet think too far in future...argh..complicated me...well..thanks to him....i am glad got such person that could knock into some sense into me..haha...my life....evolves around my xin, work, friends, family....as for him...maybe...we can have have a drink..would we? haa...

i had too much to drink and smoke yesterday...drank reallu alot....and know a very simple guy...he is verry chatty..but from his tone, i can tell he's a very simply guy by nature...probably like me also....simple....well..i enjoyed myself yesterday w my pals..plus him...kc...haha...will go find u next time....plus the other cute hunks there..hee....tata

My Xiao Xin

god....been sick.....i guess have been working too hard without resting enuff.....well..finally today off...can rest

and..i dreamt of my xiao xin yesterday!!!hee...really brightens up my day when i dream of him lo....hee....welll.....we were holding hands in e dream...and he's so shy....haha....well...same in reality..well...does the dream means something ? hee...

CyCliNg UndER the MooNLighT

i really enjoy myself man.....i cycled around my neighbourhood since 1am yesterday....on the main roads somemore...so "shuang"!!! the wind was cool.....shiok.....really shiok!!!!

and then i got a ride from two guys to...wow...really fun....one of them was cycling and i stand on the bicycle....it was fun..the wind against my face....shiok!!!but...he ah....only manage to bring me to a distant only...hey boy!!!!if ya reading...go train k? then "zai wo" more...... :)

and then another guy also "zai wo"...hee..i sat in front....wah....din expect him to able to cycle with me on the bicyle lo....i so heavy...but he really manage....and somemore..he cycled with me on the bicycle to a few blocks away jus tto get my sis supper....haha...he has trained enough..haha.....

i really enjoyed myself...haha...thanks boys...training you to "zai" your gf in future :P

ExerCisinG

hmm...i went swimming yesterday!!!gosh...fun...actually i dunno how to swim..i can swim a certain distance..but i dunno how to catch breathe.. :( so always stop when i dun have air already..haha...dumb right?

then my friend try to taught me breaststroke style of swimming...and i realise..i really slow..and my brain cannot coordinate..haha..once i know how i shld move my legs..i can't move my hands...slow slow slow....well...i guess i better brush up my freestyle and try to learn breaststroke...
i wanna jiayou..cuz i wanna be fit..hee...swimming can reduce fats plus save money too...healthy lifestyle...why not?

haha..but after yesterday swim, me and my close friend went to eat..after drinking..bought e33 for each of us..and i just drank the whole thing within 10mins...and right...i felt dizzy...and almost fainted....god...what am i trying to do?

Pursue What YouR HeaRt DesiRes ~~~

after exams..lazing at home always lead me to think of alot of unnecessary things..in fact..yes i been thinking of you again..xin...

oh well...was talking to a friend of min abt the things i been thru few months back...the most depressing period due to my mistake in life..well..was in tears man...and he tell me that .. it was a big mistake indeed and no point regretting..just let nature takes its course...and he told me to tell that to myself" things are going to turn out fine"..if i always remind myself that, things would really turn out fine...would it ?

well...pursue what your heart desires...i guess, many people do that ? just follow what their heart wanna do..however, pple do rem....sometimes pursuing what ur heart desires may be wrong..however, always think abt consequences...

and today, been listening to a song very related to this "pursue what your heart desires"....
this song is nice, guys go check this out " "listen to your heart " by Roxette.. nice song

been listening to alot of old old but sentimental music..i wonder why...and recently, i met up a friend of mine...haha..just realise he like this kind of music too..cuz his ringing tone is same as mine..."right here waiting for you"..another popular sentimental song which i guess everyone knows...

White Blazer!!!

pple....white blazers are really hard to get....i have been walking here and there looking for a white blazer for myself...perhaps, i am just too fat...can't get the right size too..hee

why white? cuz i look good in white..haha...i mean though white make one looks bigger, my skintone is suitable for white..thats why i have been looking high and low for a white blazer that suits me...singapore really kinda hard to find white..or maybe white is not a popular colour cuz it gets dirty easily..however, i still insists white unless i can find a nice black one..

finally..i bought already..hee...pple..i am gonna wear tml..so maybe u will know whether white suits me anot...haha...definitely i am sure..but white doesn't gurantee i wil ldo well for DPP..haha

good luck to me... :)

FriendS?!?

hmm...i have lost a friend...kinda sad...i met him with one bunch group of people..however, he dun even wanna talk to me much...haiz~~he use to be closest friend..we used to talk everything under the sun..really...we could talk for hours and days..i knew him through my friend..we were so close until we wanted to be "godbrother and god sister"..yes..we were..yes...were..no more are...there wasn't chemistry between us at all, we were just plainly good friends..well, i still rem when he was about to get enlisted in army, he gave me a call and said, anything can call him, cuz he would be worried about me cuz i can't take care of myself..i was really touch then..we were both attached then, and i was grateful for having such a close friend who would be there for me when i needed him. all my boyfriends knew about his presence, i would let them know about him cuz i dun wanna him to cause any misunderstandings and his presence won't pose danger to me and my boyfriends..

however, i dunno when it started, but we were no longer close. yes..everyone gets busier..however, we became strangers becuz of his girlfriend. i dunno what went wrong, but i know his gf really dislike me, well, i dun like her either. i have know him for years, if there was something between us, it would have happen long ago..goodness...yet, she always find the most stupid reasons to quarrel with him and behaving in the most unreasonable way. i can't stand her..seriously, i cant tolerate this kind of behaviour. i mean i wouldn't like the idea of my own bf having a very close gal friend as well, but if my bf really explains the relationship clearly and if i trusted my bf, why not? an occasional drink together or a chat won't kill...and if my bf really clean over the friendship, i dun mind to even be close friends with her. but i guess..saying is easy..maybe if one day, my bf really have such a close gal friend, i wonder how i behave..but i hope in a reasonable way...

well...anway, when i saw him i realised i can't talk to him anymore..our friendship is gone...well...i just felt sad cuz i lost a friend..and disappointed...well, nvm...just wish him all the best then.. for me...i dunno if i have any friends who would stand by me, however, i know, whenever if my dear friends who needs me to be around, if i can, i would be there ..cuz i know...a listening ear always helps...

treasure your relationship with your bf or gf...however, dun neglect friends too...friendship is dear too... hee...

MaRriaGe

i went to my pal's ROM yesterday...he's getting married....haa...goodness...i guess i am going to get more in future? many friends are now at the age who are planning to get married..when will it be mine ? haha...well...i use to wish to get married at a young age cuz i wanted to settle down...but however...now...nah...i won't want to get married...partially no one wants me.. :P

just kidding...i dunno if there is anyone who want me...but marriage is something serious cuz ya going to face the person for at least half your lifetime..in times of happiness, sadness and everything, you gotta stand by your future husband or wife..

however, marriage now is taken quite lightly...the number of divorces are increasing..hmm...well..it may be a good sign though..cuz the moment you dun feel happy, you dun have to suffer, just divorce..however, traditionally, you have broken the promise you make on the day of ROM..you have taken the initiative to go for solemnization (correct spelling?!?), but u did not abide by it..kinda sad....

however..there are still happiness la...there are still many good marriages around..my parents' is one of them.. hee...i am already 23 this year..they have got married for almost 25 years...well...definitely, there will be disputes, but it will be solved..and still happily marriage..this shld be the way isn't it ?

Good luck to all those in love...those preparing to get married...think twice and be serious over your decision..marriage is not for show or play...jiayou!!!

Essence of Life

hello pple....what's the thing u wanna achieve in life?
career? money? marriage?happiness?
what's the correct focus? hmm....anione can give me an answer?

i believe in destiny..i am a person who believes in fate too...and i trust my instincts. ..i trust my basic instincts..do not doubt my sixth sense, it's in me...haha...but perhaps..at times..i believe in myself too much that my instincts usually land me in trouble..but...i still believe...cuz utlimately..i am the person making decisions and learning the essence of life..i always believe in one being responsible for one's acts...in the past and now...i still believe in this..cuz..whatever you do..bear the consequences...pple around you can only provide you w advice, some bad suggestions, however, untlimately...it is YOU, YOURSELF..responsible for your own acts..

friends...i did a serious big mistake in may...i guess only my closest friends know what it is all about...pple...until just a few weeks ago, i have learn to accept the fact..seriously..the mistake has made me make more mistakes after that, however, i have learnt it well liao..i have been strong...i have tried...really...i won't be defeated...i will be sad..but i will pick up myself when it is time..
distinguishing between like and love for someone...have taught me a serious lesson...though in a hard way, but trust me, i learnt it well..life may not be simple for me, but i will spent it well..whether it will be sad,happy, miserable or exciting, i shall spend time fruitfully...thats life..

the essence of life...to know one's direction clearly..spending time the way you wanna spend...doing the things the way you wanted to and do not regret..look back into the past..but prepare for the future...

i do sound pretty serious today...i do not know why...but kinda sad now...would anyone know what have i been thinking....would anyone understand me..and would anyone be there for me when i really need someone...would there be anyone....

ShoPpinG Queen!!!

hello!!!it's me again..hmm..quite addicted to blog now...very hardworking..almost everyday will update my blog..can tell right? well..dunno how long will my passion for the blong would lasts..hee :P

i have a very long day today...was at the agency today..it's time to look for jobs..wel..almost every single agency just asks ask to email them my cv..hmm..damn it...lazy la...very nua...haha..well, soon la..will do a cv soon..if i ever get the chance to use the pc for very long..that pig keep using the pc...well..it has been a month.i haven talk to her..well, she neva apologise so wh yshld i bother..right? ...oh yes..met a bitch at one of the agency today..so bitchy lo..critise my cv also..damn her..well, probably she has seen too much of grads like me...very sian in entertaining me..hee...got 35 agencies at international plaza lo!!35!!but we only conquered think 10cuz alot of them got mamasan down there "qiao" leg only..haha..

After the long search for jobs, me and moi friend went to trim eyebrow..damn it..think that person trim until her hands shake..she cause one gap between my eyebrow..argh...look so ugly..:( but i neva thnk too much also...went eating kenny roger..one of my favourite..then went shopping cuz my friend wanna attend a wedding..so she had to find clothes...and we went walk....haha...and iu enjoy picking clothes for people, cuz i like to see dif pple w diff figures trying out diff clothes..and i have confidence in my taste. :) well, cuz i have not much $$ to buy but i am happy to see my friends buy clothes that suit them. and i really like the blue top that i picked for my friend..well, i neva try but she looks good in it :) i think she will get alot of attention that day..the colours are getting alot of attention in a very femine way..and she's tall too..show of her main assets..but she dun like wearing skirt..but girl, if ya reading...pls..she look great in it..i dun lie..u shld know my frank comments..hee...

so after the shopping, i realise, i have the natural thing in me that can visualise tastes on pple..well, i din pursue my interests..3 years ago..well...nvm...gonna save up,,,trying hard..then i shall start my fashion shop...i love fashion..though for myself, i dun really look presentable..haha...i guess gotta improve on myself first..hee...

god..it's a long blog..hope no one fell asleep...hee...bye..gotta go work...hope my eyes dun look puffy...cried myself to sleep..hee...but i am ok again...bye~~~

Quit Smoking & Drinking?!?

hmmm....exams are over..time to do some reflection..hmm...went to school and attended a briefing on interview..my interview is next friday, so still a long way to go..but kinda scary from the way that "santa" says..haha..i call him "santa" cuz he reminds me of santa..hee..aniwae, christmas is coming..:P
in school, i just told my friends that i gotta quit smoking and drinking cuz they will affect my health..and they do not solve problems..right pple? hmm..however..when i was having dinner, a friend of mine asks me to accompany her go drinking..oh boy..so i went...she was moody..i was neither in a good mood..so i started drinking and smoking..talking about quiting....hmm..when would i quit..haha..soon la...i can't afford to smoke or drink also...haha..well, pple,..i am a non smoker and drinker in the past..but..really they do take my mind off certain things..so ok right? but i won't become an addict...hee..cuz i haven bought my first packet of cigges...hee...

gotta go liao...gonna look for job liao...and...today was a disappointment..cuz my careers that work got a pass only..goodness...i dunno what i did also...haha..bye everyone~~~

Years in SIM

First yr of SIM, entering SIM was a new place..new friends new environment..everything was new..i came..excited..after a sad relationship, i came into SIM..made friends..started a very fast relationship..and ended pretty fast too...hmm...how do i feel about it now..well...one word..fast..feelings?over..well, it was part of my memories of SIM. it happened first year..the first half of my first year.oh ya..i found a friend...Min..she will be foreva the most trusting friend i know in SIM..i missed the times we gossip around, bitching around and the times you were there for me..i really appreciated..thanks..hereby, i wish you all the best in whatever you do..Pple, she's really a very nice gal...never regretted knowing..who's she? it is for you guys to find out...haha...

hmm...it was also the second half of my first year that i know my third boyfriend...til now..he's still the one i really love...til now....why til now..cuz i can't gurantee who i love in the future..everyone also the same..but i am glad i am clear about my feelings now..hee :) ... Thanks...he has taught me alot of things in life... without him, my life in SIM would be rather boring... well, thanks to him also, i had a dramatic relationship....

My 2nd year in SIM...hmm...nothing special...unless y9ou guys see taking ur specialisation as special? haha...i chose mine...and enjoyed mine..did u guys?...this yr..did alot of projects..amd quarrel pretty much becuz of this..but i guess..projects can really tell you what kinda people you are dealing with...pple are always so complicated...and fake at times...i came to be aware of this during this yr...yes..so it was a fruitful year also ? hee...

Lastly...final year...hmm....it started off not nicely....well....becuz of my ups and downs in relationship..thats why...but no problem...i am ok now....and third yr...well..the most memorable thing is the melbourne trip...the chance for me to go mebourne with pple in SIM...it was fruitful...but i din go anywhere other than mebourne...kinda sad? well...bo bian...no one likes me..nobody wanna go sydney with me...haha...anway, i am back in singapore...thanks to "fen" and "ni"...it was enjoyable shopping and exploring the small mebourne city...i miss melbourne...the weather....the people... :) oh well...no worries...my mates....plus ren ge and chong ge, we gonna go together next dec..rem the deal..and rem me!!!haha..well...planning is easy....but implementing is hard...thats what Sherman said...haha...

hmm...time just passes like that...i will definitely keep thinking of life in SIM..i have got to know friends...some are simply very nice...thanks for been there for me when i needed you.....some...whom i seldom meet...some whom i seldom talk face to face..but greatly, many who gave me encouragement on msn...i hope you know who you are....xie xie ....

pple...i am kinda sad today....started missing you guys already...hee...my seniors..my juniors...everyone....pple i love, pple i like, pple i dislike plus pple i "bio"..i am gonna miss all of you..... hereby, i wish everyone...all the best...everyone...

to be simple is blessings...happiness is desirable...memories are sweet...grudges are not meant to be remembered..

ExaMs Over...Whats NexT?

hurray!!!exaMs over...however it was a disappointing paper, cuz the format was totally different from the past exams...well..just wished all the best...so many people were complaining over it..oh well...just hope that everyone passes... :)

hmm..last day of exams...kinda sad...school's ending..gotta miss school...three years...short...nah....pretty long..went thru a couple of ups and dwons...made friends made enemies..all kinds..studied..played..worked...well, i had went thru all sorts...exams..studies...skipping lectures...assignments...gonna miss them...i guess more or less is the time spent with friends that i missed the most..frankly speaking..i made real lot of friends, i know really quite alot..some friends..some hidden foes..some known foes..well, thanks to all of you, you have been part of my life..

ExAms~~

hmm....this morning got a very important appointment...hee...welll...early morning....already very happy...haha..well...at least this appointment has started my day well...after the appointment, i had lunch with my "godpa" and ""godma"....hmm..they really dote on me..perhaps it's because of the relationship i have with their son..haha :P

then my "godpa" drove me to Suntec city...i have exam this wed..but since i outside..might as well go walk around...so my "godpa" dropped me at suntec, and before i alighted, he gave me money for shopping...though it is not a very big amount, i am very touched....his action made me paiseh also...but lucky, me and his son got along quite well....a relationship? u pple must be wandering...well....well.....i dunno..everything is up to the future....i can't do anything.. hee :P
well...i want a cinderella ending...rem? hee

god....this wed exam....and my last exam was last thurs..til now...i haven fnish...maybe relaxing too much....oh well...gonna start now....slept straight after i got home today..and headache..slept too much..haha...b4 exams have ended, i have plans over how to spend my time fruitfully...gonna learn pilate, swimming and go gym....haha...gonna keep fit and keep slim... :P anione wanna join me ?

oh yes...people, i love the song "the one you love" by GLenn Frey..i have been listening to it for a couple of times..this is an old song..but i like the music esp the saxaphone...hee...sentimental mah....well, i am no romantic person..but i am sentimental :)

have to stop liao....gotta work hard on my government and business...hee...good luck everyone...
Miss you Xiao Xin~~~ Do you miss me ley ? :P