Monday, January 12, 2009

突然好想你

突然好想你

#最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自已屬於我自已
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

*突然好想你 你會在哪裡
過的快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麽你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下 最痛的紀念品
我們 那麽甜 那麽美 那麽相信那麽瘋 那麽熱烈的曾經為何我們 還是要奔曏各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

REPEAT *
#最怕此生 已經決心自己過沒有你
卻又突然 聽到你的 消息
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been packing my stuffs.. found a couple of things which made me thought of alot of things again!
cards, letters, diaries .. i shld have threw everything.. but ... i put them in a plastic bag, seconds after .. i put it back in my drawer... they are of some values.. grew up with me and gave me memories... regardless good or bad... i still keep!

anyway...suddenly rem the days when i am always on the phone with my XiaoGe ... haa.... even a small message could get me so excited then... well... saw alot silly things that i did for him and remembering little things including the dates i know him, met him etc.... that's puppy love? i guess... silly ... but just so funny ... still... glad that we are still friends!

then saw alot of cards, letters from ex-lovers and all... realise that i am really not a good gf after all... seems to bring them so much pain and horror, stress and all.... am i that bad? and seems that they have difficulty communicating to me including their feelings and thoughts.. or is it just a way from men to make women feel guilty after breakups? well... alittle of both ya?

the forever thing, the promise thing...do they ever rem ? and now the look of it make me sort of disgusted ... but why does it appear so sweet in the beginning..not a bit of doubts that time... that is call blinded by love... haa!

it pains me .. especially when i am running through the last serious letter from XiaoXin... i suddenly feel so small and the cause of everything and his plight today... i am that bad? and really such a horrible gF? i seriously think so ... no tears though... but... the hurts there...

well... 突然好想你... yes ... 突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛...我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影...

.... 變成兩部悲傷的電影

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