Me ... with 五月天 ... 回到地球表面 ... on my Birthday!!!

I am excited .. My birthday this year’s gonna be so so so different. I am going to give my virginity off … on my birthday!!! Haha … to Mayday!!! I am gonna watch that concert on my birthday itself … my god!!!

After a good lunch meal with my beloved family, a very full meal of Dim Sums and all. I am ready for my dinner session with my ex-boss … He treated me to a good Aussie meal at this NUS club at Suntec… He even offer to give me, Winz and Cui to Indoors stadium. But, I guess he lost his way because we only reach Indoors Stadium at 8 after we left Suntec at 7.30… hoho .. I dun wanna elaborate on that. But lucky, we got in time for my Mayday!!!

It was a very good concert as everyone was super high. I just couldn’t stop myself from jumping and screaming. And it’s this night that I really forget myself, my sorrows, everything and just enjoy the concert! Ashin just melts my heart I look at him… his voice, his songs … just moved me to the core … and there was this part that I almost cried …. Mayday! You guys did a good job. And my tix was really worthwhile. I would there again next year!!!

Perhaps, SG girls were too decent? When Ashin was close, they dun even dare to hold him, if I was around …. Haha … I can’t imagine wat I would do … LOL…I was also mesmerized by Monster .. But I guess, Ashin really melted me with his voice … hoho …

The concert with not much special gimmicks or too much fantasy costumes…A simple T-shirt with jeans … Mayday … you guys … is a big success … I am gonna be a big big fan of yours … from now and ever … hoho …..

7 surprises .. Lucky 7 … lucky me …

My birthday this year fell on a Saturday this year. As usual, usually I planned my birthday celebrations with different groups of friends on different days. This year was also kinda surprising for me and I received plenty of surprises on Friday itself. I was touched … a loss of words… I felt so much in love … haha …

I was in fact feeling quite upset in the morning because the HR disappointed me with their feedback on the pay increment stuffs. And it really pissed me off. I was really moody and started to curse and swear when I complained to my colleagues. Then, suddenly, my colleague was shouting for me that someone was looking for me. And I just blurted, “fXXX, I’m busy!” my colleague was stunned at my mood, lucky he didn’t hear me … I went to the door and saw my 1st surprise. A bouquet of 12 stalks of Gerberas from the 3 babes, Eileen, Helene & Winz! I was surprised and I love the words on the card. “Did you think we would forget to give you flowers?!” haha … Well, I didn’t expect flowers really because we celebrated on Tuesday already. But I love the flowers. Really, looking at them now … it’s such a waste that they withered off so fast … what a waste … I was still in a daze at my chair looking at the flowers when a call came in. “Jaz, you have someone looking for you again!” haha … this time round … a Chocolate cake from my secondary school buddies! Haha … they sort of discussed that everything will be delivered to me on Friday. =)

I was already very touched when these 2 surprises came in. but that’s not all. My colleague gave me a big Yoshi as another surprise. Goodness… then another Jap colleague came and gave me my fav Subway peanut butter cookie too! That’s a total of 4 surprises already. I really can’t work that day… Just then, one of my managers walk past my cubicle and saw the flowers and gift, “is that for your birthday?” I nodded. And that triggers the next surprise. He got a cake for me and ask the khakis around for a mini cake celebration and playful Mus took a handful of whipped cream and rubbed on my nose. Haha … I was already too delighted then….

I went back to my place and start to crack my brain how to bring my stuffs back … then … the 6th surprise came in … it was already close to 5pm when the surprise came… Fang Mei sent another a rabbit with flowers over to me!!! Another one … She really kept her surprise well … She ask me about my msn message as I showed the number of surprises for my nick. And she added to my surprise count for that day. Can you imagine how touched I was that day?

Looking at the surprises on my table, I was really at a loss of words. I decide to bring back all. I loved them all and couldn’t bear to leave anyone in the office. So in the end, I brought home everything in the taxi. Last, but not least, my youngest sis also gave me a mini surprise. She bought me a small air refresher out of her pocket money. That totals up my 7 surprises for the day.

Gosh .. How lucky I am! I love everything … I love you all for all the efforts and surprise …. Thanks once again!

Bunny & Flower Cheeky Mus Flowers from e 3 Babes Yoshi from Joanne
from Fang Mei

from my cute Sis My bed Family Chocolate cake from Jacq & Clara


My NSEC khakis!!!!

Birthday Session with Ah Kav

It was kind of a reunion day for me yesterday … I met a lot of old friends … mostly are from my ex-colleagues … I took a half day leave to collect my phone before meeting Kav. As there was still time, I decided to go back to Kinergy to see the people I missed. I also arranged a coffee session with my ex-boss. I am very grateful to what he did for me when I was there. Well, back then, I was rather unhappy with him when I decided to throw in my resignation letter; but he did give me a lot of opportunity then. =)

Well… I met up a lot of old colleagues plus my dear .. haha … then after I went town to meet Kav. We decided on Ramen at Far East Plaza .. FXXX.. the Ramen was so spicy … and in fact too spicy…it got me all red in my face and lips .. That’s my birthday dinner … spicy dinner …And we moved to Tangs and met one of our own “colleague”, Jill. We started chatting of times when we were at Robinsons, cosmetic counter then… Time has really flies … It was 6 years ago when I was still working there! Make me sound so old! And I have know Kav for that long … Well, but I am glad that we are still good friends. =)

We ended at Balcony, Hereen after the short meet-up with Jill. And started taking pictures at the very ambience place plus our nice magaritas … and that’s not all … We move to Alley bar after our drinks at Balcony … And Kav gave me another surprise…a Chocolate cake from Spinelli! Haha .. Another chocolate cake… =p but it’s nice as well … perhaps I should learn to appreciate chocolate cake … It was indeed a surprise … I really appreciate her efforts … and I am glad to see her looking very vibrant … It has been a tough time for her, but I know she will be able to go through this. Well, hurt can make one grow stronger. And I can see that. =)

This is another birthday session with so many pictures taken … I becoming more and more like a camera freak … have I ?

Birthday Surprise from my 3 Babes

Surprise, surprise and surprise … It’s kinda difficult to make one feel surprise when we repeat our surprise activities .. LOL .. Well, this year the 3 babes, namely ME – Jaz, Eileen and Helene planned a surprise birthday party for another babe – Winnie. She was indeed very surprised at the whole thing and perhaps abit touched? And, this April, the 3 babes decided to give me a surprise. However, it seems so not easy to still keep me in suspense because they did the same thing as what we did for Winnie … LOL … OK…OK… I was surprised when the cute waiter brought in the cake… :P I met Winz first and the 2 other babes rushed over first to Giraffe (the dinner destination) preparing for my arrival. As usual, abit of photo taking and the dishes came and we had our dinner. Lucky the food was in small portions but I think not really worth. It is a nice place with ambience and all but probably it fits better as a chill out place rather than a eating place. After a just enough dinner, suddenly a cute waiter came in with a cake with so many candles to my table and passed me my cake. He was cheeky and sang a nice birthday song. But he’s cute… LOL … Indeed, I should be surprised, but … perhaps I was abit overly sensitive cuz I see Helene and Winz fidgeting … I was expecting something coming… haha …. And they were so disappointed when I say I dun like chocolate cake… :P well … I dun have a preference for cakes … but as I am not someone is a sweet tooth, I dun really like chocolate cakes as most of them are rather too sweet. But the “Hello Kitty” cake was nice, and I am kinda sad that I forgotten to bring it back after our craziness at Ice Cold Beer… And … the craziness’s gonna begin … We ended up at Ice Cold Beer and 3 babes especially Helene was so excited in getting a hunk to take picture with me … and we seems to be like “desperados” haha … and the bitches around us perhaps were gossiping “childish sluts .. getting so much attention” … LOL … but we simply dun care … we just keep taking pictures the moment we got in and they manage to find a hunk that I have accepted … haa .. Marco, an Australian who happen to be in Singapore via transit flight but be flying the following morning … well, no contacts were exchanged so after the end of the picture-taking, marks the end of the story … haha Indeed, it was a great time we having .. cuz we took a lot of pictures doing free advertisements for watches, beers and all … plus Lesbian acts and seducing poses and all .. seriously … I didn’t know we can be that wild … LOL … We have fun … and I really enjoy this surprise … Love you all … Love the birthday gift … Love the cake as well …. And the next meet up …. Helene’s birthday … will there be another surprise? Haha

April --- FesTive SeaSon

April. A month full of activities for me… =) Having fun, enjoyment with my friends, family … I love this kind of happy feelings... Hope I can be always as happy ... I’ve been unhappy for quite a couple of times in the past … Experiencing problems in school, friends, relationships, work… Through all these hurt, falling down, picking myself up, I really should live my life in a happy mode. It’s simply too short for me to waste for regrets to come.

Well, my birthday is coming and this year seems exciting for me. I will be going to watch Mayday Concert on my birthday. Well, it’s gonna be my virginity concert and I giving to 5 men… LOL… Before the concert, I will be probably meeting Fang Fang! It has been quite awhile since I last talk or even met with her. We contacted via msn and email only, and I feel that it’s not enough… But I guess, this happens when everyone of us grows up…Each of us has his or her own commitments and time seems never enough … Oh well… But I am glad to be able to arrange to see her on my Birthday! Actually, it’s just another birthday and I dun have to make it a big thing but I am enjoying it …. Every happy moments with my closed ones….

Yeah!! It’s my Birthday … and I love all those who love me, for who I am for what I do and who are with me here … =)

oh yes.. i was sorta of disppointed a few days back because my phone was spoil ... damn the XXXX service Centre ... waited and waited .. but .. my phone's back .. and i am glad the data's still inside ... hehe =)

GreaT day 4 the AnGeLs

I really enjoyed myself last Saturday, though it really burnt a hole in my pocket. hehe =)

It was a sort of early birthday celebration for me and my blue angel. Activities were planned, and really fruitful. Early in the morning, we were at Bugis street, praying at the Guangying temple. It has been awhile since i last went for prayers. And .. it started raining...and very heavy rain .. our next destination was Sentosa!! Rain rain .. please go away .. and indeed, when we reach Harbourfront MRT, it has stopped raining. In fact, the weather was good for a short tour around Sentosa before our next destination. Our "Islander" came to fetch us with his "Islander Bus" and became our tour guide. Brought us around and took the Carlsberg town cable, one gd thing with our "islander" .. we were given discounts or even free entrance to certain places on Sentosa. =)

Look .. Inside Carlsberg Town Cable ..
Nice Beach view .. did you see MerLion? hehe

Look ... Answering a handphone call when up in the skyride .. haa .. Cool eh? Aniwae, it's a call from from Yoga place, which wanted to give me free usage...all scams .. haa

Cool Glasses?

these are glasses for watching at the 4D theatre. It was quite interesting and really gives us the effects with all those wind blowing against our hair, water on us and shaky chairs ... haha ...

We left Sentosa about 4. Our next destination appointment was 5pm. It was a trio massage session =) a great experience and really relaxed session. I felt rather strange in the beginning cuz it has been a long while since i last went for massage. Totally naked and massage plus scrub ... i wonder whether did the lady vomit after seeing such an unsightly body of mine .. The massage was overall ok.. i still feel abit pain today.. so it's gd ?.. aniwae. i took the massage at Anjana's, Upper Cross Street. Rather cheap..so you guys may wanna try? (Check out more on my another blog) you can't compare with those expensive one. Value for money mah ... and ... this is not all ... we still have another 2 destinations to go .. hoho ...

exciting right .... next .. Singapore Flyer!! 165m high .. and we took the Singapore flyer at 9pm... It was kind of a waste cuz you can't see much at this timing. but it suppose to be romantic isn't? haa ... well ... prob if i have a bf .. but ... half an hour in the capsule with nothing much .. it is pretty boring ... just taking pics and walking around .. haha .. i think the speed was kinda slow ... prob to make my ticket worthwhile ? $29.50 per person for a half an hour journey .. well, once in a lifetime ... haha .. somemore with my angels ... hee ..

Lastly but not least .. our real late dinner ... in fact, we planned to go for Sakae supper buffet. We wanted to go to Changi Airport .. but i guess all of us were rather drained of all the walking, taking pics .. we decide to go to Marina square instead .. But .. there was a long queue .. and alot of couples were still queueing .. guess... thats wat couples do on a sat night?haa ... in the end, we decide to go to Changing Appetites instead... Food was ok .. and we happen to see the Guest officer we met earlier at the massage. She was there with her bf i think for dinner as well.. wat a coincidence. As Blue angel doesn't eat cakes, we order a muffin with candle for me and her .. haa ..

Thats how i spend my sAturday .. it drained both my money and energy .. but i greatly enjoyed myself other than the quarrel with Mr wee that day ... time was spent happily and fruitful .. I look forward to our next outing whether is it Sentosa or Pasir Ris theme park .. Go go Go!!!

Time is Not enough ..

i was walking around the library one day and realise that there is really so much readings to do. I was not a avid reader when i was in schools. I do read, mostly fashion magazines and some romance novels. but i have not read enough, and now at an age of 27, i am still reading romance novels. I find myself wasting my time away. I should expand my general knowledge instead of induling in some unrealistic love, isn't it ? There is so many things i can read .. Cities, fashion, crafts, self enhancement etc.. gosh .. then i went to a games shop, there are again so many interestings games around ... god .. i have been wasting my years of living.

and inside me, i have decided to sleep less, make more use of the time around. Time is neva enough. I aim to sleep not less than 6 hours a day but still feelin fresh for activities after. cuz i am always feelin tired and sickly. i guess i need to workout as well. Well, looking at myself now, i hope i will be able to achieve some things soon.

I guess the problem with me is, talk no action. So hereby i decide to write down my goals? and hopefully, i be able to achieve them. Friends .. remind me and motivate me ok? hehe =)

Goals in life
1. Career/Entrepreneur
2. Savings
3. Attain a 3rd language
4. Take up graphic courses
5. Maintain a good health and body
6. Travel

The above are general goals which I have always wanted. Then again, it's like talk air again. So i will amend abit from my goals. hee =)
1. I have until Sep to search for a new career, if not i will stay put till Sept. Then i will think until end of the year whether do i want to take over my dad's related business. (target: establish fixed career goal )
2. Set aside $400 every month. Actually, I should save $600 a month but know my spending habits, i keep it to $400 first, once if i have the habit of saving, i shall increase. Start fix saving in June. I want to pay off all my incur debts and installments first. 2 months to settle everything. Jiayou!
3. I have always been interested in Japanese. Thus, I hope i can start within this yr prob June as well.
4. Graphic course. It's always my interest and love for creative stuffs. However, looking at myself, i guess this have to be shelved. Prob 3-5 yrs time. Target 2010. LOL
5. I will be consuming my uncle's recommended multi-vitamins. Secondly, I hope to maintain a gd workout schedule, such as swimming once a week and jogging 3 times a week. For now, I wanna fix a jogging session once a week starting May. Then 2 times a week in June. Please . I need motivation. LOL
6. Travel. If i successfully be able to save, I hope i can travel this yr. Especially in June or July period. I hope to be able to travel overseas at least once every 2 years. For a start, I hope i can go taiwan. I need money to go. Probably 2k. haha . from now to end of the yr is 8 mths. If i able to save $600 a month, I will go in Dec. I hope so!

Well, looking at this.. I guess i need to be very determined. Probably even to print this out to remind me...haha .. Friends ... Family .. Wish me luck!

One YeaR AnniVerSaRy

time flies .. and indeed ... it's one year for me ... one year here for me ... well, today's my one year with my current japanese company... gosh ...

i came in with my heart that i was cheated by my agent who brought me in .. and i really couldn't stand the environment here ... and the workload ... it was very quiet to me and i am really not used to it ... no music!! how can i work without music .. but actually, in fact alot of companies do not allow music, so it's not just this company. Next it's the work.. i got no satisfaction, no goal and no responsibility and it really bores me alot ... i like to be busy and i always think i am a workholic and i am ambitious? .... and .. after a three months bond here, i really look for quite a number of jobs but all neva come too well for me..and afterawhile, i stop because i would want to get the "attractive" bonus ... and ... all these ... i been here for a year ... lol

Looking right at my table now, you can see from the picture.. i am rather comfy with my current working environment and also a sentimental person? alot of nice toys and alot of sentimental stuffs from my closed ones are put all around ... and that is my current workplace .. it is .. no kidding ....

hmm....however, i am still on the lookout for a job that i desires .. actually, i do not know wat i really want .. but ... i hope to get something similar as my first job ... would i ? or start my own biz ? i like the second idea more....

Bless me ..

SiCkLy Me ..

been to the doc .. finish the medicine, but still ... since sat, been sneezing away .. and i was predicting the sickness sydrome .. thus i kept gulping water and took panadol ... but .. it didn't help .. and i was down with cold ( doc diagnose) ... i had a bad throat, suffered throat infection and it was so bad that i feel pain in my ear and head .... this is so bad ... so bad till i really seems to drag myself in doing anything .. had 2 days rest at home which seems not enough ... and back to work, i have full access to internet and start blogging again .. nothing special has happen to me ... no entertainment also ... pretty boring .. but i looking forward to next week! a spa session with my 2 two angels ... plus ... April 26th .. cuz i am watching Mayday concert with my 2 buddies again! hehe ... that makes me smile .. at least ...

BlooDy Morning

it's a bloody morning for me .. kinda bad start for the day ...

early in the morning, i bathed .. and stupidly ... i cut my left thumb ... you know wat .. i cut my thumb because i tried to squeeze the last bits of conditioner out from the stupid tube ... and .. it ACTUALLY cut my thumb ... a one cm cut on my left thumb just keep bleeding ...

and .. this is not the end ... cuz .. after ... i brushed my teeth ... perhaps .. i was still sleepy then ... i brushed too hard and my gums started bleeding ... argh ...

and now ... in my office ... within minutes of reaching the office, i cut my right knee as i knock my knee against the hard surface of my desk ....

this is just a bloody morning for me .. and i just can't resist not blogging over this bloody scene ....

CrossRoads~~Always~~

I had a long weekend last week .. Wasn't at home since last Wed .. But i did not apply any leave, i was on urgent leave again! well..my dad landed in hospital. He had a fall and it actually hurt his own injury. He had diffculty in walking and I was in hospital till quite late on Tues night. Haiz .. and we were at the Emergency section ok? 6-7 hours of waiting which is termed as Emergency treatment.. argh .. Thank goodness, it was not that serious but he need to go back doc for review first week of April. He refused to take operation or been hospitalised, guess he's worried abt his work.. And..somehow .. i know my dad's getting on his years but somehow, tis incident just triggered me to rethink about my future again ...

Shld I help w his biz? hmm...i not engineering inclinced..but seriously if i wanted to take on tis, tis is not a necessity cuz i would do up w oher sects of biz .. but shld i ? I know i shld help my dad, i shld relieve his burden but .. many concerns .. Our different views .. my stubborness and my dumbness .. plus engaging my sis or my cousins to help tis .. Is this a gd idea? i guess .. i need to think .. realli think .. my dad's biz no big biz like company but ... dun know how to explain but .. doin biz has always been my dream .. do i have wat it takes to follow in his footsteps? argh ... 27 tis yr .. loss .. crossroads .. now and then ... argh ..

BuSy BuSy BuSy ... BluSh Blush Blush

it has been quite awhile since i last blogged.. as wat my title says, i have been busy ... 24hrs a day, 7 days a week seems not enough for me .. perhaps i have poor time management? but neverthless, i got too many too many committments which i can never understand too ....

to summarise, my time is just been spend on watching movie, doing OT, playing mahjong and all? haha... I have watched the Leap Years think Last Friday with my good friends ... It was good meetup cuz time was spent so usefully .. haa .. before the movie, we went to Minds Cafe to kill time, to settle our meal and to strength my brain by playing Master Mind.. It is a game which i haven been playing for so long, and it really can kill my brain as i feel that i behaving more senile each day .. argh ...

perhaps it's just my work... been busy with my work ... but wat am i doing exactly ? well ... i am a project secretary .. as the title says .. secretary .. bescially, i am a nanny to my engineers ... photocopying documents, tracking of the status, maintaining the register, keep them up to date ... plus occassionally of serving coffee... how active can my brain be .. doing these kind of stuffs... well... been hunting for job .. perhaps i am lazy .. or perhaps, i getting older ... doing such job is actually much soughted by alot of people .. but not me ... well ... cuz my dream is still to have my own biz .. earning a miserable 2k pay .. plus my uncountable spendings on drinks, shopping, gifts etc .. how can i fulfil my dream ... i really dun know ....

oh yes...i learn how to play mahjong ... the japanese style one last thurs ... my engineer ask me to follow them to the japanese association to play...the rules are rather different and the points system etc ... but ... it is rather interesting afterall... and .. my engineers are really treatin me well... they bring me to eat, now play mahjong and they also promise me gifts from Japan ... haiz... they are getting nicer to me each day and the thought of me always wanting to leave is making me in a dilemna ... oh well... but neverthless ... prospects is still inportant ...my 2 good friends are in dilemna too... in choosing jobs ... i was too ... last mth .... guess choosing a right one is important .. and now .. my white angel who just took up a new job is not happy with her job .. i just hope she is happy soon ...

oh well... when can my life be smoother ... i hope soon ... i am tired..

haa...oh yes .. i almost forgotten ... i have been blushing very often nowadays.. and i dun know why ... good blood circulation ? i been blushing fast each day whenever these guys come and talk to me ... lol ... it's really red .. and i am not lying cuz my colleague beside me see it often ... argh .... is it good or bad? lol ...

MoVie MarathoN

looks like my main expenditures for this season is on movies .. been watching quite a couple of movies within these few months and i have planned a few more shows to watch .. and ... the crying season seems to be here too ... cuz the movies can move me to tears... for instant, PS I Love You, a show which i highly recommended, touched my hearts and my tears just flows when i see the letters been mailed to Holly (Hillary Duff) each season.. Gerry (Gerard Butler), the husband loves her to the point that he prepares these touching letters to aid his wife in moving on after his death .. well ... the movie is really a success in making the audience cry with the show.. though some commented e show was rather slow pace and boring.. But neverthless, it's sweet..

Since Dec last yr, I have watched Warlords featuring my All-time idoL --- Takeshi Kaneshiro Anikin Jin Cheng Wu!! Plus the very "man" Andy Lau and Jet Li. Nice war show but rather draggy.. hee .. I have watched the Jumper, half-watch Kungfu Dunk *due to e fact, rush to hospital during e show*, PS I Love you and on Monday Death Note: L change the World (kinda disappointed..it's not as good as wat i hoped). wohoo ... and ... I planned to watch The Leap Years this coming Friday with my best buddies .. My colleague recommended me this show and to bring in extra packets of tissue as this show can move people to tears again ... argh .. Romance .. Romance ... haa ... when's our Sweet and LAsting Romance? =p

So who's going to watch more movies with me and what shows are nice? hehe ..

alcohoLic CrY Baby

it has been quite awhiLe since I spend my Fridays in Singapore. Ever Since my dad bought the house in msia, i have been in and out of msia. So my usual weekends are spent playing Mahjong, eating and Sleeping there. LOL. However, as usual i went back to msia on sat. Played my mahjong bought a "baju kurong" for my friend's wedding. She's a Malay and I have always wanted to ethic clothes so i decide to buy one tis time round and wear it during her wedding or on racial harmony day.. hehe .. I also planned to buy the Indian sari... hehe ..

Neverthless, I quite enjoy my Friday night w my colleagues eating and drinking. Kinda disappointed at e fact that my idol didn't join us. It was a session initiated by e jap engineer which didn't include him.. oh well .. but i still enjoy the food and drinks. the yakitori was very nice and ex .. plus .. becoming an avivd drinker .. sakae, tiger, whisky and red wine ...

then comes sat ... went back msia ... however late sat midnight, had a long chat w mr wee and i was really crying .. stories abt my past and present .. i know that i shld forget abt it and grow w the bad memories, but it's neva easy .. well...if only ....

hereby ... i thanx for mr wee w me .. and thanx to my family and friends around me who have been scolding me and guiding me .. haa ... all of you .. are my part of my life ... and i appreciate it... =)

AcTive BloGger --- the Reason to EscapiSm

been looking for applications to add to my blog such as music, link, tracker etc.. neva i know i can be so free and active in blogging.. oops .. guess, it's one of the many ways that people do to keep themselves or people around them to be aware of wats happening. or like me, a way for escapism?

was on the phone with wee yesterday night and kept crying..the tots of my future partner if there is saddens me .. the fact that i am no good for anyone... haiz .. just cry like an open tap ... argh ...

Back to the Gd Old days..

feeling really sleepy in the morning as usual.. haa.. but today's Kel's bdae. So i sms him wishing him a gd bdae, but it was kinda disappointing when he ret the sms by askin who am i since he lost his mobile. alot of people nowadays been using this excuse or is it not ? i find it qute sad cuz feels like been forgotten.. haa...just me i guess ..

e day just goes on like that as usual, slacking .. Friendster or facebook..but today decide to go back blogging.. it has really been awhile since i last blogged.. looking back, my blog entries were rather sad and seems like it was a kind of me bearing my sorrows or tryin to improve my english..haha For now, i hope my blog would be more interesting and more lively. =) of course plus beautiful memories.

i was chatting w Kel for the second half of the day.. haa .. i have known kel in 2005 and it has been a long time since i see him or even talk to him.. guess all of us are busy but he is still charmin to me..haa.. and i dun know if he knows that. but i realise, i didn't know him that well..but he's a sweet guy and i tink he's e only one after my school days that i started secretly admiring again.haha..oh well .. crushes i guess.. =p and we chatted for quite a bit and i dun even dare to suggest celebratin his bdae w him.. Winz was surprise that i dun dare to ask him out..haha.. in the past, maybe .. now .. i dun know.. no confidence and i look like shit also .. after much chatting, finally i volunteer to celebrate w him..but..he was booked just minutes after.. was it reeallll or just a way or rejectin me .. i dun know .. but neverthless .. he make my heart beat kinda faster when i chatted to him then ... haha .. oh well ..

today ended w him over in my mind .. and god knows when i will meet e right guy .. oh well ... good things are worth waiting .. haha .. to all those like me who are not attached .. we will meet the right one ... and we would live happily ever after .. =)

PS: PS I Love You is a very touching, sweet show.. Romance with comedy..check it out ...

ReBoRn?!?

it's has been so long since i started blogging in my tis historical place...haha..

well, since it's historical, i shouldn't bring our issues up with unhappy memories or watsoever. I am leading a better life now. *i hope* hoping not to be as dramatic as it used to be.. =)

but .. it is good to learn from the past also .. one can learn to be stronger eh ? =)

Wish Me Luck .. My Family, My Friends .. those who loves me for who i am ..

TiRed~~

Hi people..It has been a very long time since the last time i wrote my blog. Well, it may be my last time continuing to do this thingy. I may stop...who knows. I am quite tired of myself. I have really lost control in myself. My heart has overule my mind at times.. Seriously, I know I am such a person...Well ... Cuz Heart is Blind..they are hidden in the bodies... Neva expose to the real world?

Haiz... I am tired liao... Really ... At work , facing friends , facing colleagues , facing family or even facing the person that is always on my mind; i am tired of not being able to be myself ... I know i am very emotionally unstable ... well ... i am a sore loser in relationship ... what to do ...