Feeling Smurfy...

Caught the movie smurfs and really enjoy the show.. And pick up the slang adding smurf in sentences cuz this word can mean alot of things. So in fact, I don't need to say how I really feel. Sounds stupid? But I think quite cute and sometimes as I am so complex.. Maybe I do not know the best word to describe how I feel... I feeling Smurfy... Recently been very stress at work.. Alot of deadlines to meet.. My work is really making me physically and mentally bushed out... So much so until I really can collapse.. :( Apart from work.. I really feel very moody... I guess I really have personality problem.. I can't cope and I think it's very bad.. Though I love myself and how I think, how I behAve, how I feel about things.. I think I am really terrible. I know I need to be positive and I think I did change but I am too emotional.. I am so complex and confuse that I can just break down and cry. I guess I am tired.. No matter how strong and how independent, how simple I can be.. I just feel upset at times.. I don't feel lonely.. But I am really alone.. That's it.. I dunno wtf this is abt.. Damn... And xin.. Why are you appearing so frequently in my dreams recently? Wtf.. Haiz.. I think I quarrel with my motivation. And I am pretty affected.. Ok.. That's it.. Gd.. Very gd... Night..