Nincompoops!

I am one myself i think.. i am reckless.. insensitive... i did alot of things that pissed people of. I feel unwanted.. I feel that I am hated.. I feel that I am very unliked ... very not suppose to live... almost committed suicide that day! but i am scare of e pain and no courage to just give up.. life's just too short .. oh well... but i feel i never live the life i want nor my way... very sad... i am feeling so moody today!

i sms xin once again... stupid.. dun know how many times i said i want to give up.. yes i will... i didnt reply his sms after .. in the first place... i just want him to know how i feel? well... he should just slap me and ignore me or get married.. it's better... or i should just get a replacement!